I have to say that this is hard...you guys not being here, i'm probably having just as hard of a time, if not..even harder.*sighs* but I told myself i'm not going to cry. I mean...shit, the tears form behind my eyes but they never fall, because I refuse to let them. I'm afraid that it will make this all the more real.It will mean i've accepted my defeat and I lost you all. I never seen this ending up this way Kate, I never thought that i'd be married by 19 and divorced by 20.I feel so badly about this, especially when the brunt of it all is that we could have worked had I quit my job earlier and gave you the attention you longed for so badly and that I wanted to give you myself.I know it must have been hard being use to me looking at you as if you were the world, looking at you unlike anyone else ever looked at you, but soon that look went away and I looked at you like I did any other day if we'd even have time enough to exchange gaze's or glance's to begin with. =0(. I suppose we both feel like we've let the kids down, but divorce
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And I'd be lying if I said it did'nt hurt me that you wasted no time in fucking some random girl the day after I move out gee nice to know you de value me that much Zac so much for the I love you your the world to me speech. Adam is great hes got a daughter to and his ex wife is dead plus hes a cuddler and he likes to just lay with me and talk not pounce on me and hump my leg. He just does'nt want me to talk to you anymore because he cares about me and he is the jealous type so don't bother me unless its about the kids. And don't worry if he breaks my heart or anything else I will take care of him I'm a big girl.
i personally think it was the most retarded thing for you two to get divorced. you had a bad fight, and thats suddenly the end all of the relationship? okay, well if you let it end that easily you two obviously werent as in love as you made yourselves out to be.
anyway, im sure things will get easier kate. gimme a ring. xo ave
He was never in love with me Avery he just used me cause I had his kids if the twins were never born he'd have never continued persuing me nor would we have gotten married. I could'nt take the fighting anymore it was draining me. I had no choice but to finally call it quits.
I hope things will get easier I love ya Avie your the bestest.
What are you talking about? I was IN love with you and DATING you BEFORE the twins kate, how are you so quick to forget these things?You really try your damndest to make me out as the villian don't you?I hate this.
I know you loved me when we were dating but you would have never in a million years asked me to marry you if I had'nt gotten pregnant you would have eventually realized there was more to life than me and ended it you and I both know that. And your not the villan we both are there I admit it. Happy now
Aw hun.. I'm so sorry that you've got to be dealing with all this stuff. I really dont know what happened between you two. No one can ever know that besides you two, but I'm here for you hun. Dont forget that I've been through all that divorce stuff, it takes a lot of adjusting for everyone especially the kids. I remember when Ez realized daddy wasnt there anymore. Although Tay wasnt there much when we were together but Ez hated me for it. He just cried and cried. I'm sure its tough on Kaden, but when he gets older you just need to be there and help him understand it hun. You guys all deserve to be happy and you never know.. maybe being apart will make you happiest.. and.. if not.. you can always try things again. Dont worry hun, things will work out for you. You deserve the best.
Dont go forgetting about me hun, we have to get together sometime. I'll talk to ya later.. hopefully see you soon!
Nat how do you always know what to say to make me smile? I love ya girl I really do your the most kick ass best friend a girl could have. I know kadens mad at me but what can I say hes a daddys boy and Choloe is just like me but I hope they don't hate us forever we still love them. I think it will work out for the best Adam is a grat guy we stayed up talking all night long and hes just awesome and choloe adores his little girl.
I miss you! We have to have girl time soon we should go to a spa or somthing I could sure as hell use a massage.]
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anyway, im sure things will get easier kate. gimme a ring.
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ave
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I hope things will get easier I love ya Avie your the bestest.
Kate
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Dont go forgetting about me hun, we have to get together sometime. I'll talk to ya later.. hopefully see you soon!
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I miss you! We have to have girl time soon we should go to a spa or somthing I could sure as hell use a massage.]
Kate
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