Deception & Enticement (Ch.9)
Title: Deception & Enticement
Pairing: Yunjae
Genre: non-AU (band-fic), romance, angst
Rating: PG13 - NC17
Length: Chaptered, 9/??
Summary: When he feels like there is nothing else remained to save the group, Yunho, with the push by the SM president, decides to use Jaejoong's love against him, by pretending to love him back.
Beta: mcarol85 ♥♥♥
Previous Chapters: [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8]
Yunho was going to lose his mind. He knew this would be difficult already but in his assumptions it would be difficult to persuade Jaejoong, it would be difficult to deal with his own conscience. He hadn’t thought he would be having weird confusing feelings about this relationship. He’d thought his stance about Jaejoong would stay the same.
He couldn’t say that he was falling in love with Jaejoong, because he definitely was not; but being physically close with him all the time was making him feel weird things. In the end Changmin was right. Even though Yunho was the one who had control over this relationship, even though he knew all of this was part of a play; they were too close, and this was confusing his hormones. Yes, that had to be it. Yunho was a regular human being. It was normal that he would get affected by the shower of attention and love he was receiving from his close friend.
Jaejoong didn’t bring up any sex related topic in their conversations after the hand job incident, and Yunho was glad; but this didn’t stop his wincing or accelerating heart whenever Jaejoong touched him. He couldn’t believe how he’d lost his control and let Jaejoong jerk him off that day; the memory of the hot breath on his skin, needy kisses and the moment he reached his orgasm still fresh in his mind. It was a moment of shame for Yunho, but the way Jaejoong acted like it wasn’t a big deal made Yunho scared of himself; because he knew Jaejoong had a lot more to offer and he wasn’t sure if he would be capable of refusing them.
“Good morning sweetie.” Jaejoong pecked his lips while Yunho was going through some entertainment news on his tablet.
“Good morning.” he replied with a brief smile and tried to look busy.
It didn’t work though. Jaejoong snuggled beside him and laid his head on his shoulder looking at the screen also. “How early did you wake up? I hadn’t seen you in bed in the last couple of mornings.”
“Really?” Yunho acted like he didn’t know. He pretended to check the clock. “I don’t wake up that early actually. It’s been just a half hour.” he lied. Yunho decided to avoid being in bed with Jaejoong when they were both awake. At night he either went to bed early and pretended to sleep, or went really late after making up an excuse. Until he convinced himself that he had complete control over what was going on between them, he wouldn’t give Jaejoong any opportunity to make a move on him.
Jaejoong brought his body closer. “Do you want some traditional breakfast? I can prepare some stew and rice.”
“No, thanks. I already had some cereal.” His decision included preventing Jaejoong from being a sweet boyfriend too. He had to figure out how Jaejoong got into his head and block those ways.
“I’ll eat alone then…” he heard Jaejoong mumble with a sigh and tried to ignore his pouting lips.
“You can eat with Changmin. Isn’t he up yet?”
“Yeah, but he is leaving. He was packing his bag earlier.”
“What?” Yunho panicked for a moment. “Where? He can’t leave!”
“Why not?” he heard Changmin from the hallway. He was wearing some sort of tracksuit and he had a backpack. “I am going to hike with Kyuhyun and Jaewon hyung. Did I need to get permission for that?”
Yunho couldn’t let Changmin leave them alone. He chuckled nervously. “I didn’t mean that. Why are you going all by yourself? Let us get ready and we’ll come with you too.”
Changmin narrowed his eyes in suspicion. “I am not alone hyung. I just said I am going with-”
“The more the merrier!” Yunho cut in. He stood up and walked towards Changmin; using his expressions, he tried to make him see that he didn’t want to stay alone with Jaejoong. Changmin looked towards Jaejoong and seemed to understand for a moment but then he rolled his eyes.
“I am already late hyung. Maybe some other time. Besides I am bored of doing everything with you guys. I need some other people in my life.” He opened the door and yelled “Have fun!” before he slammed it behind him. That brat.
Yunho couldn't believe Changmin had left him just like that. Changmin didn't know the severity of the situation though; and there was no way Yunho could explain it to him. First he needed to explain to himself, then he could consider asking for help. When he turned his back to the door he found Jaejoong staring at him, his eyebrows lifted, questioning what just had happened.
"I didn't know you liked hiking that much. Or should I say Changmin?"
Yunho averted his eyes. "I like hiking!” he answered merrily. “It's a nice sport. It comes with sightseeing and... fresh air..." he added, mumbling.
"O...kay... Next time we can plan this together then." Jaejoong replied, but he didn't seem to be convinced. He stood up from the couch and walked to Yunho placing his hands on Yunho's chest when he got close enough. “Anyways we will finally have some time alone. Isn't that exciting?" he spoke with a low tone, moving his hands up and down softly. Yunho was terrified. He looked into Jaejoong’s large eyes, then to his lips, then to the way he softly bit on his lower lip. He needed to think fast, or soon things would go out of his control. "What are you thinking about?" Jaejoong smiled, looking amused.
"Huh? Nothing." Yunho thought he must be looking ridiculous.
"Nothing? I thought you were going to say something cheesy like ‘I was thinking about you.. sweetie..’ he giggled. That gave Yunho an idea.
“I was!”
“Huh?”
“I was thinking about us actually. You know.. It's been almost two months since we started dating.”
“Yes?”
“But we haven't been to a single date! There was always some other people around.”
"So you're saying.. We should go out on a date?" Jaejoong asked, his eyes sparkling.
"Yes, definitely! We must." Yunho said, trying to match Jaejoong's smile.
Jaejoong held his neck and leaned up to join their lips. "I love you so much. I'll go get ready!"
As he looked at Jaejoong’s back, Yunho wondered how Jaejoong would feel if he knew Yunho wanted to go to a date to avoid staying alone with him. Or if he knew it all... he added in his mind.
In the end, going to a date turned out to be more fun than expected. They went to an aquarium first, not attracting much attention thanks to many narrow and dark paths. There was something lacking though; making this feel less like a date and more like a school trip. They couldn't hold hands or hug each other the way the other couples did, and it kind of annoyed Yunho instead of making him relieved, he realized he wanted to make Jaejoong happy while he could. He felt like he owed him at least that much. Maybe because of that, when he had the chance, he pulled Jaejoong into a dark corner and checked if they were in anyone's eyesight,
"What are you doing?"
“Just this.” He suddenly leaned down and kissed Jaejoong on the lips. Probably taken aback, Jaejoong broke the kiss, but didn't push Yunho away.
“Are you crazy? Someone will see.” he whispered but he looked happy rather than worried. Yunho smiled too.
“Maybe I am.” He joined their lips again.
Their next stop was a restaurant in Cheongdam, they knew the owner and it was a place they could be away from regular public’s eyes. Yunho wanted it to be romantic but couldn't risk being seen as a couple so he thought this place was a good choice. He was proud of himself until that point.
“Is this a special day?” Jaejoong asked all of a sudden, with a teasing smile on his face.
“It is...” Yunho hesitated. “It is special because it is our first time out on a date. That's what you mean, right?”
“Yeah but what I meant was more like.. Is this a special day enough to... you know... continue celebrating at night.”
Yunho almost got choked. “Huh? Ah...” Even though Jaejoong was still smirking, he also looked kind of shy. It wasn't visible because of the dim lighting but Yunho wondered if Jaejoong was blushing. He gulped on some water to buy time. He couldn't believe his way of distraction led him exactly where he was avoiding from.
“Do you really think time at the aquarium and some late lunch makes up for a wedding or an engagement party?” Yunho asked rhetorically, trying to remind him -and to himself- where he stood when it comes to sex.
“Yeah... right...” Jaejoong mumbled his smile fading in a second. Yunho felt horrible about that; but there wasn't anything he could do about it either.
“Did you hear anything from Yoochun and Junsu? The company lawyer said their many claims got rejected by the judge in the first two hearings. It must be hard for them.” Yunho wanted to skip to their original reason for being there.
“They don't talk to me anymore. I tried contacting the law firm too but they don't want to give me any information. I am on the enemy's side now.” Jaejoong muttered, trying to look like he was focused on cutting his steak. Yunho could see his mood was much worse than earlier. He sighed and congratulated himself inwardly. He was very good at screwing things up. He reached for Jaejoong’s hand and made him look at his face.
“Don't say things like that. There is no enemy’s side in this. What is the worst case scenario? They come back to our group? Would that be a horrible ending?"
“It would at some point…” Jaejoong sighed. “ You know… there were times I felt suffocated to the point I thought of quitting everything. Music, stage… life..."
“Jaejoong!” Yunho cut him, strengthening his hold.
Jaejoong closed his eyes. “I know... I'm sorry. You don't need to be worried. I never seriously considered it. It is just... being stuck here as a member of an idol group forever doesn't sound good all the time. There are other things in life that we can achieve."
“Being stuck as TVXQ? Are you hearing yourself? This was our dream, this was the best thing that happened to us and I promise you, we will have even better days. But unfortunately no, it won't last forever; even if we wanted to. Once it is over we will have time to do other things. All of us started life very early and even though we feel like we are late for many things, actually we are not. We will have more chances to become better.”
“I know. You're right... I'm sorry.”
“Don't be. I wasn't thinking much differently a couple of months earlier. I couldn't even see the point anymore. Why we were doing what we were doing... But then I remembered. The things I love and the things I care about… The things I want to protect.” he squeezed Jaejoong’s hand again, and he saw him smile.
“You know what?” he continued, “Changmin told me that you healed me. He said that I was very depressed before but he told how all that changed after you came back to me.” he smiled. “You gave me a reason to be strong again.” Yunho knew the story was originally slightly different but Yunho thought it would still count.
Jaejoong smiled at him too, looking sincere. “I need you to know that I am happy here and I don't regret my decision. However, I know how the others feel too and it makes me feel guilty. You know how difficult it gets, you know how they pushed our limits; physically and psychologically.”
Yunho nodded.
“During those times it was really nice to dream to get out of there and express ourselves the way we wanted. To be free in our choices to achieve things for our real selves, by ourselves. Then after it started to make sense, after realizing we had enough courage, it stopped being a dream and turned into a plan. What we didn't think of was the separation. I assumed too much. When you listened to our problems and agreed, I thought you also wanted a way out. I was wrong. But even when the disbanding issue came up, I was naive enough to think we would be fine. We would still be close. But look at me, Yoochun and Junsu now; or the way we were before you confessed. We couldn't even look at each other without feeling bitter. I thought that if we turned into that state in a couple of months; what would happen a year later, or three years later? Trying to find out that answer was scarier than being trapped in SM.”
Yunho cleared his throat at Jaejoong's last sentence, irritated, and Jaejoong smiled. “I know we are not trapped here. Nobody is the enemy. I get it. It is just how I felt back then. I can't say my thoughts were completely healthy. That's what happens when you are really angry. I'll stop using such words, I promise.”
“What words? Were you swearing again in public Kim Jaejoong?”
Yunho turned around to see who was talking, but he couldn't recognize the person; he felt like he’d seen the guy before but he wasn't sure who he was.
“Jongwoo hyung!” Jaejoong stood up and they hugged briefly, Yunho intently watching.
“It's been a long time, how are you doing? You're all over the news nowadays.”
“Yeah... Things happened.” Jaejoong answered nonchalantly, shrugging. “It's getting better though.”
“Well, I am glad to hear it! We really missed seeing you.”
“I missed you guys too.”
While Yunho was trying to figure out what they were talking about the guy finally turned to him. “Ah hello. We have met in Japan before but probably you won’t remember me. I am Park Jongwoo.” he reached for a handshake, and Yunho reciprocated.
“Jung Yunho. Sorry I couldn’t remember.”
“It’s okay. Did I interrupt a business meeting? I know you guys had some problems lately.”
“No, it is nothing like that.” Jaejoong answered. “We were just hanging out.”
“Cool.. Ah, Jaejoong-ah there is a party tonight. Did anyone call you already?”
“No, no one told me. They must have thought that I wouldn’t be in the mood to have fun.” Jaejoong chuckled.
“Then you must come tonight! Have some fun.” The man said, holding Jaejoong’s shoulder.
“Ah.. I already promised Yunho that we would hang out together.” Jaejoong answered, looking at Yunho for some support.
“So what? Bring him over too then.”
“No, he can’t come!” Jaejoong answered too fast, making both Yunho and Jongwoo stare at him for a while. Jaejoong smiled sheepishly. “I mean… Yunho doesn’t like that kind of parties.”
Yunho felt like he should be suspicious, but then again, it was true that he wasn’t into parties in dark places with many alcoholic drinks. Besides, this could be his excuse to avoid Jaejoong for the rest of the night.
“Jaejoong why don’t you go? We can hang out some other time. Your friends must have missed you.”
“What? You mean we are done here? Nothing more?”
“Yeah, I don’t have any more plans. You had been spending too many nights at home. You should take a break.” Yunho said, trying to smile reassuringly.
“Yes, listen to your friend.” Jongwoo said, and Jaejoong hesitantly nodded. They hugged once again and the man told Jaejoong he would text the details later before he left.
After finishing up their very late lunch, or early dinner, they got back to the dorm and Yunho had to deal with a clearly disappointed Jaejoong. He said he wanted to read and went to the bedroom and Yunho couldn't find the courage to go and cheer him up there. For that reason, he sat and on the living room couch and played games from his smart phone until he heard Jaejoong walking around the hallway. He went to check up on him in hopes to make himself forgiven -it wasn't like they were really fighting anyways- but he regretted it all as soon as he saw Jaejoong’s attire for the night.
Jaejoong was wearing tight torn pants and a deep V cut blouse that was almost transparent; leaving nothing much for imagination. Yunho could see the effect of the work outs he had done thanks to their plenty of free time lately. As if all of these weren't enough he was wearing kohl around his eyes, his reddish brown hair was nicely styled too. He thought he was sending him to hang out with his friends, not to an effin stage performance!
“Hey.” Jaejoong said nonchalantly, and checked himself up on the hallway mirror, ignoring the stare Yunho was giving him.
Yunho raised his eyebrows, “Is this how you're going to the party?”
“Yes, is there a problem?” Jaejoong replied coldly, making it obvious that he was doing this to get back at Yunho.
“It is almost zero degree out there and you're going there almost half naked. Don't you think there is a problem?”
“Party is not outside and I will wear a coat, genius.” Jaejoong rolled his eyes, and walked towards the kitchen. Yunho followed him.
“What is your real purpose? Are you trying to make me jealous? You don't have to make yourself look ridiculous just to get back at me!” Yunho was getting angry. He wasn’t in the mood to play such games.
“Who says I look ridiculous?” Jaejoong suddenly fumed.
“I just said it, didn't you hear? Who goes to a friend party like that?”
“The party is in a night club and my attire is entirely appropriate. I am not going to receive fashion classes from you Yunho.” he rolled his eyes again and went back to grab his coat from the hanger close to the door. Yunho followed and held him before he can wear it.
“What kind of people are you meeting with? Why don't I know about them?”
Jaejoong brushed Yunho's hand off. “Why? Suddenly you care about my friends now? You never asked about them when me and Yoochun went to hang out at nights in Japan. Who did you think we were hanging out with?”
“I thought you were meeting some people from Japanese entertainment industry. You had many friends like that. How come they are in Korea now?” Yunho always warned the group members to be careful while selecting the people they are hanging out with, since any bad event would affect the reputation of all group; but he didn't pry on more than that. He trusted them. He didn't know why he suddenly couldn’t trust now.
Jaejoong sighed. “Well, there were some Koreans that worked among them too. They always travel back and forth like us. Some of our Japanese friends are in here that's why they are throwing a party, okay? Will you move now? You're blocking my way.”
Yunho looked at Jaejoong head to toe once more, completely aware how breathtaking he was. Then he suddenly remembered something.
“Your old boyfriend, was he one of them?” That guy named Jongwoo looked way too old for Jaejoong. He wouldn't be dating him would he? Then suddenly Jaejoong averted his eyes; and Yunho’s heart sank.
“That guy was your ex?” Yunho exclaimed, and Jaejoong denied immediately.
“Jongwoo hyung? No way!”
“Then someone else that will be at the party.”
“Yunho, we agreed on not talking about this.” Jaejoong pushed Yunho aside and started wearing his shoes.
“Well I think you just admitted that I am right.”
Jaejoong sighed in defeat. “You told me to go to this party. Why are you making a fuss about it right now?”
“I thought you were meeting your friends not your ex!”
“Does that really make a difference? Friends that I am not dating are just friends. Nothing more. Besides, I have no idea who will be coming. So if you're okay now, I'll be leaving. Don’t wait up.”
“Jaejoong!”
Jaejoong left hurriedly and slammed the door, not letting Yunho speak.
Yunho was feeling very frustrated and angry. Mostly because he couldn't understand what was going on. 'Don't wait up?' what was that supposed to mean now? 'I'll be spending the night with my ex lover so you can take the night off as my boyfriend.' he hissed. The ironic part was this was what exactly Yunho asked for, but he wasn't happy about it anymore.
He started to pace in the living room. What were those clothes anyways? Was Jaejoong wearing them for his ex too? Yunho didn't remember Jaejoong dressing up for him. Jaejoong was supposed to be in love with him, no? Was he trying to give Yunho a message? 'You might not want to fuck me, but there are plenty of others who’ll be willing to. '
"Fuck!" Yunho swore, and threw his phone on the couch. Why was Jaejoong so hard to please? Yunho had taken him to the aquarium and they even kissed in public (practically); couldn’t he be happy with that? What if Jaejoong cheated? How was Yunho supposed to act? Was he supposed to accuse him and break up like normal couples would do or was he supposed to take it all in since his sole purpose was to keep Jaejoong there and nothing more.
He suddenly heard the door password being entered and he turned around hopefully. “Jaejoong?”
“No, it's me. Did Jaejoong hyung leave?” Changmin asked as he made his way in.
Yunho snorted. “He went to a party.”
Yunho walked back to the living room and continued walking up and down.
“And you're upset because he left you here?”
“Huh? No. I told him to go.”
“Now you miss him and you regret your decision.”
“Not like that.” Yunho rubbed his forehead and sighed. “I think his ex boyfriend will be there.” he added.
“Oh nice.. nice.. jealousy.. I like it.” Changmin smirked.
Yunho rolled his eyes at him. “It is not me being jealous. Don't you see how wrong this could go? The only reason Jaejoong didn't leave SM is me. Everything I’ve done might get ruined in a night.” Yunho was glad he could finally rationalize his feelings.
“I don't think you need to worry about that. He won't cheat on you.”
“He said don't wait up!” Yunho exclaimed.
“Did it occur to you that he might have said it because the party will be finishing late?”
“Well, you didn't see what he was wearing!”
“Okay hyung… whatever. I am too tired for this. I'll take a shower and leave again we'll watch a movie together with the guys.”
Yunho sighed and nodded.
“Don't wait up!” he heard Changmin yell after he left the room. That brat.
Yunho was not going to do what he was asked though. He sat in front of the TV and started waiting. He needed to see Jaejoong the moment he got in. After half an hour or so Changmin had left again and Yunho kept changing channels, trying to keep his mind busy. He didn't know how much time had passed but it didn't feel long when he heard the door being unlocked again.
He stood up and saw Jaejoong entering with a bright smile on his face. He directly walked towards Yunho and placed a kiss on his lips.
“I am so sorry I left like that. I couldn't stand those people. I came back as soon as possible.” he looked so beautiful. Yunho couldn't feel any anger anymore. He held his face in between his palms.
“It doesn't matter now. You came back to me.” He bent down and joined their lips, and pushed Jaejoong towards the closest wall. He ran his hands alongside Jaejoong's body.
“You wore these clothes for me right? You were trying to drive me mad.”
Jaejoong smirked and replied with a husky tone “Did it work?”
“Yes.” Yunho answered and ran back of his fingers down Jaejoong's chest feeling his skin under the thin fabric. He stopped when he reached his perky nipples; this time rubbing more roughly as he bent down to kiss and bite on Jaejoong's throat. After he directed his kisses down his collar bones, he heard Jaejoong moan and he made his decision. He was going to have Jaejoong. Right then and there.
The rest happened too fast; in between messy kisses he got rid of Jaejoong's clothes. He didn't know where his went but soon enough he had Jaejoong against the wall, their naked and heated bodies rubbing against each other. Yunho grabbed Jaejoong's buttocks and the back of his thighs before he lifted him; wrapping his legs around his waist easily as if Jaejoong didn't have any weight. He was already hard and ready, he held his erection and led it right between Jaejoong's legs, and inserted into him in one thrust. He loved the way Jaejoong's scream sounded, just like he had thought it would be. He attacked Jaejoong's neck with his lips again, his mind was hazy with the pleasure he was feeling around his penis. All he wanted was to quickly reach his release and Yunho didn't hold back, he pulled back and pushed back in faster and faster the each time.
“You like this right? This was what you wanted. You wanted me to fuck you like this.”
He continued his actions but he was surprised when Jaejoong didn't reply.
“Tell me, tell me Jaejoong. You are driving me crazy.” He caught Jaejoong's lips, continuing to thrust into him. He breathed against Jaejoong’s lips, “You happy now? Tell me you like it. Tell me you want more.” he thought Jaejoong would do exactly what he said but strangely he heard Jaejoong chuckling instead. He paused, trying to understand what was going on.
Jaejoong suddenly had a dark expression accompanied with a smile, as if he was mocking him. “Yunho-yah... you wanted this.”
As Yunho tried to understand what was going on Jaejoong kept calling him.
“Yunho… Yunho-yah.”
Then suddenly Jaejoong was not against the wall, but at his side; it was dark, and he had his clothes on.
“You fell asleep in front of the TV.”
“What happened? What time is it?”
“It is 1 am. I got bored and wanted to come back early. I’d let you sleep here but I didn’t want you to catch a cold. Get up and go to bed.”
Yunho tried to get up as Jaejoong started to walk away, but then he noticed his raging bulge. He tried to cover it in panic, wondering if Jaejoong had seen it already.
“I hope you weren’t dreaming about some chick because I don’t want you cheating on me even in your sleep Jung Yunho.”
That answered his question.
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A/N: The conversation they had during the dream was hilarious. I'd suggest you to go back and read that part again and realize how awkward it was hahahah I won't let Yunho off that easily. Anyways, I didn't take one year this time. Kind of proud of myself. :P Comments are loved! ♥
Next Chapter ==>
Pairing: Yunjae
Genre: non-AU (band-fic), romance, angst
Rating: PG13 - NC17
Length: Chaptered, 9/??
Summary: When he feels like there is nothing else remained to save the group, Yunho, with the push by the SM president, decides to use Jaejoong's love against him, by pretending to love him back.
Beta: mcarol85 ♥♥♥
Previous Chapters: [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8]
Yunho was going to lose his mind. He knew this would be difficult already but in his assumptions it would be difficult to persuade Jaejoong, it would be difficult to deal with his own conscience. He hadn’t thought he would be having weird confusing feelings about this relationship. He’d thought his stance about Jaejoong would stay the same.
He couldn’t say that he was falling in love with Jaejoong, because he definitely was not; but being physically close with him all the time was making him feel weird things. In the end Changmin was right. Even though Yunho was the one who had control over this relationship, even though he knew all of this was part of a play; they were too close, and this was confusing his hormones. Yes, that had to be it. Yunho was a regular human being. It was normal that he would get affected by the shower of attention and love he was receiving from his close friend.
Jaejoong didn’t bring up any sex related topic in their conversations after the hand job incident, and Yunho was glad; but this didn’t stop his wincing or accelerating heart whenever Jaejoong touched him. He couldn’t believe how he’d lost his control and let Jaejoong jerk him off that day; the memory of the hot breath on his skin, needy kisses and the moment he reached his orgasm still fresh in his mind. It was a moment of shame for Yunho, but the way Jaejoong acted like it wasn’t a big deal made Yunho scared of himself; because he knew Jaejoong had a lot more to offer and he wasn’t sure if he would be capable of refusing them.
“Good morning sweetie.” Jaejoong pecked his lips while Yunho was going through some entertainment news on his tablet.
“Good morning.” he replied with a brief smile and tried to look busy.
It didn’t work though. Jaejoong snuggled beside him and laid his head on his shoulder looking at the screen also. “How early did you wake up? I hadn’t seen you in bed in the last couple of mornings.”
“Really?” Yunho acted like he didn’t know. He pretended to check the clock. “I don’t wake up that early actually. It’s been just a half hour.” he lied. Yunho decided to avoid being in bed with Jaejoong when they were both awake. At night he either went to bed early and pretended to sleep, or went really late after making up an excuse. Until he convinced himself that he had complete control over what was going on between them, he wouldn’t give Jaejoong any opportunity to make a move on him.
Jaejoong brought his body closer. “Do you want some traditional breakfast? I can prepare some stew and rice.”
“No, thanks. I already had some cereal.” His decision included preventing Jaejoong from being a sweet boyfriend too. He had to figure out how Jaejoong got into his head and block those ways.
“I’ll eat alone then…” he heard Jaejoong mumble with a sigh and tried to ignore his pouting lips.
“You can eat with Changmin. Isn’t he up yet?”
“Yeah, but he is leaving. He was packing his bag earlier.”
“What?” Yunho panicked for a moment. “Where? He can’t leave!”
“Why not?” he heard Changmin from the hallway. He was wearing some sort of tracksuit and he had a backpack. “I am going to hike with Kyuhyun and Jaewon hyung. Did I need to get permission for that?”
Yunho couldn’t let Changmin leave them alone. He chuckled nervously. “I didn’t mean that. Why are you going all by yourself? Let us get ready and we’ll come with you too.”
Changmin narrowed his eyes in suspicion. “I am not alone hyung. I just said I am going with-”
“The more the merrier!” Yunho cut in. He stood up and walked towards Changmin; using his expressions, he tried to make him see that he didn’t want to stay alone with Jaejoong. Changmin looked towards Jaejoong and seemed to understand for a moment but then he rolled his eyes.
“I am already late hyung. Maybe some other time. Besides I am bored of doing everything with you guys. I need some other people in my life.” He opened the door and yelled “Have fun!” before he slammed it behind him. That brat.
Yunho couldn't believe Changmin had left him just like that. Changmin didn't know the severity of the situation though; and there was no way Yunho could explain it to him. First he needed to explain to himself, then he could consider asking for help. When he turned his back to the door he found Jaejoong staring at him, his eyebrows lifted, questioning what just had happened.
"I didn't know you liked hiking that much. Or should I say Changmin?"
Yunho averted his eyes. "I like hiking!” he answered merrily. “It's a nice sport. It comes with sightseeing and... fresh air..." he added, mumbling.
"O...kay... Next time we can plan this together then." Jaejoong replied, but he didn't seem to be convinced. He stood up from the couch and walked to Yunho placing his hands on Yunho's chest when he got close enough. “Anyways we will finally have some time alone. Isn't that exciting?" he spoke with a low tone, moving his hands up and down softly. Yunho was terrified. He looked into Jaejoong’s large eyes, then to his lips, then to the way he softly bit on his lower lip. He needed to think fast, or soon things would go out of his control. "What are you thinking about?" Jaejoong smiled, looking amused.
"Huh? Nothing." Yunho thought he must be looking ridiculous.
"Nothing? I thought you were going to say something cheesy like ‘I was thinking about you.. sweetie..’ he giggled. That gave Yunho an idea.
“I was!”
“Huh?”
“I was thinking about us actually. You know.. It's been almost two months since we started dating.”
“Yes?”
“But we haven't been to a single date! There was always some other people around.”
"So you're saying.. We should go out on a date?" Jaejoong asked, his eyes sparkling.
"Yes, definitely! We must." Yunho said, trying to match Jaejoong's smile.
Jaejoong held his neck and leaned up to join their lips. "I love you so much. I'll go get ready!"
As he looked at Jaejoong’s back, Yunho wondered how Jaejoong would feel if he knew Yunho wanted to go to a date to avoid staying alone with him. Or if he knew it all... he added in his mind.
In the end, going to a date turned out to be more fun than expected. They went to an aquarium first, not attracting much attention thanks to many narrow and dark paths. There was something lacking though; making this feel less like a date and more like a school trip. They couldn't hold hands or hug each other the way the other couples did, and it kind of annoyed Yunho instead of making him relieved, he realized he wanted to make Jaejoong happy while he could. He felt like he owed him at least that much. Maybe because of that, when he had the chance, he pulled Jaejoong into a dark corner and checked if they were in anyone's eyesight,
"What are you doing?"
“Just this.” He suddenly leaned down and kissed Jaejoong on the lips. Probably taken aback, Jaejoong broke the kiss, but didn't push Yunho away.
“Are you crazy? Someone will see.” he whispered but he looked happy rather than worried. Yunho smiled too.
“Maybe I am.” He joined their lips again.
Their next stop was a restaurant in Cheongdam, they knew the owner and it was a place they could be away from regular public’s eyes. Yunho wanted it to be romantic but couldn't risk being seen as a couple so he thought this place was a good choice. He was proud of himself until that point.
“Is this a special day?” Jaejoong asked all of a sudden, with a teasing smile on his face.
“It is...” Yunho hesitated. “It is special because it is our first time out on a date. That's what you mean, right?”
“Yeah but what I meant was more like.. Is this a special day enough to... you know... continue celebrating at night.”
Yunho almost got choked. “Huh? Ah...” Even though Jaejoong was still smirking, he also looked kind of shy. It wasn't visible because of the dim lighting but Yunho wondered if Jaejoong was blushing. He gulped on some water to buy time. He couldn't believe his way of distraction led him exactly where he was avoiding from.
“Do you really think time at the aquarium and some late lunch makes up for a wedding or an engagement party?” Yunho asked rhetorically, trying to remind him -and to himself- where he stood when it comes to sex.
“Yeah... right...” Jaejoong mumbled his smile fading in a second. Yunho felt horrible about that; but there wasn't anything he could do about it either.
“Did you hear anything from Yoochun and Junsu? The company lawyer said their many claims got rejected by the judge in the first two hearings. It must be hard for them.” Yunho wanted to skip to their original reason for being there.
“They don't talk to me anymore. I tried contacting the law firm too but they don't want to give me any information. I am on the enemy's side now.” Jaejoong muttered, trying to look like he was focused on cutting his steak. Yunho could see his mood was much worse than earlier. He sighed and congratulated himself inwardly. He was very good at screwing things up. He reached for Jaejoong’s hand and made him look at his face.
“Don't say things like that. There is no enemy’s side in this. What is the worst case scenario? They come back to our group? Would that be a horrible ending?"
“It would at some point…” Jaejoong sighed. “ You know… there were times I felt suffocated to the point I thought of quitting everything. Music, stage… life..."
“Jaejoong!” Yunho cut him, strengthening his hold.
Jaejoong closed his eyes. “I know... I'm sorry. You don't need to be worried. I never seriously considered it. It is just... being stuck here as a member of an idol group forever doesn't sound good all the time. There are other things in life that we can achieve."
“Being stuck as TVXQ? Are you hearing yourself? This was our dream, this was the best thing that happened to us and I promise you, we will have even better days. But unfortunately no, it won't last forever; even if we wanted to. Once it is over we will have time to do other things. All of us started life very early and even though we feel like we are late for many things, actually we are not. We will have more chances to become better.”
“I know. You're right... I'm sorry.”
“Don't be. I wasn't thinking much differently a couple of months earlier. I couldn't even see the point anymore. Why we were doing what we were doing... But then I remembered. The things I love and the things I care about… The things I want to protect.” he squeezed Jaejoong’s hand again, and he saw him smile.
“You know what?” he continued, “Changmin told me that you healed me. He said that I was very depressed before but he told how all that changed after you came back to me.” he smiled. “You gave me a reason to be strong again.” Yunho knew the story was originally slightly different but Yunho thought it would still count.
Jaejoong smiled at him too, looking sincere. “I need you to know that I am happy here and I don't regret my decision. However, I know how the others feel too and it makes me feel guilty. You know how difficult it gets, you know how they pushed our limits; physically and psychologically.”
Yunho nodded.
“During those times it was really nice to dream to get out of there and express ourselves the way we wanted. To be free in our choices to achieve things for our real selves, by ourselves. Then after it started to make sense, after realizing we had enough courage, it stopped being a dream and turned into a plan. What we didn't think of was the separation. I assumed too much. When you listened to our problems and agreed, I thought you also wanted a way out. I was wrong. But even when the disbanding issue came up, I was naive enough to think we would be fine. We would still be close. But look at me, Yoochun and Junsu now; or the way we were before you confessed. We couldn't even look at each other without feeling bitter. I thought that if we turned into that state in a couple of months; what would happen a year later, or three years later? Trying to find out that answer was scarier than being trapped in SM.”
Yunho cleared his throat at Jaejoong's last sentence, irritated, and Jaejoong smiled. “I know we are not trapped here. Nobody is the enemy. I get it. It is just how I felt back then. I can't say my thoughts were completely healthy. That's what happens when you are really angry. I'll stop using such words, I promise.”
“What words? Were you swearing again in public Kim Jaejoong?”
Yunho turned around to see who was talking, but he couldn't recognize the person; he felt like he’d seen the guy before but he wasn't sure who he was.
“Jongwoo hyung!” Jaejoong stood up and they hugged briefly, Yunho intently watching.
“It's been a long time, how are you doing? You're all over the news nowadays.”
“Yeah... Things happened.” Jaejoong answered nonchalantly, shrugging. “It's getting better though.”
“Well, I am glad to hear it! We really missed seeing you.”
“I missed you guys too.”
While Yunho was trying to figure out what they were talking about the guy finally turned to him. “Ah hello. We have met in Japan before but probably you won’t remember me. I am Park Jongwoo.” he reached for a handshake, and Yunho reciprocated.
“Jung Yunho. Sorry I couldn’t remember.”
“It’s okay. Did I interrupt a business meeting? I know you guys had some problems lately.”
“No, it is nothing like that.” Jaejoong answered. “We were just hanging out.”
“Cool.. Ah, Jaejoong-ah there is a party tonight. Did anyone call you already?”
“No, no one told me. They must have thought that I wouldn’t be in the mood to have fun.” Jaejoong chuckled.
“Then you must come tonight! Have some fun.” The man said, holding Jaejoong’s shoulder.
“Ah.. I already promised Yunho that we would hang out together.” Jaejoong answered, looking at Yunho for some support.
“So what? Bring him over too then.”
“No, he can’t come!” Jaejoong answered too fast, making both Yunho and Jongwoo stare at him for a while. Jaejoong smiled sheepishly. “I mean… Yunho doesn’t like that kind of parties.”
Yunho felt like he should be suspicious, but then again, it was true that he wasn’t into parties in dark places with many alcoholic drinks. Besides, this could be his excuse to avoid Jaejoong for the rest of the night.
“Jaejoong why don’t you go? We can hang out some other time. Your friends must have missed you.”
“What? You mean we are done here? Nothing more?”
“Yeah, I don’t have any more plans. You had been spending too many nights at home. You should take a break.” Yunho said, trying to smile reassuringly.
“Yes, listen to your friend.” Jongwoo said, and Jaejoong hesitantly nodded. They hugged once again and the man told Jaejoong he would text the details later before he left.
After finishing up their very late lunch, or early dinner, they got back to the dorm and Yunho had to deal with a clearly disappointed Jaejoong. He said he wanted to read and went to the bedroom and Yunho couldn't find the courage to go and cheer him up there. For that reason, he sat and on the living room couch and played games from his smart phone until he heard Jaejoong walking around the hallway. He went to check up on him in hopes to make himself forgiven -it wasn't like they were really fighting anyways- but he regretted it all as soon as he saw Jaejoong’s attire for the night.
Jaejoong was wearing tight torn pants and a deep V cut blouse that was almost transparent; leaving nothing much for imagination. Yunho could see the effect of the work outs he had done thanks to their plenty of free time lately. As if all of these weren't enough he was wearing kohl around his eyes, his reddish brown hair was nicely styled too. He thought he was sending him to hang out with his friends, not to an effin stage performance!
“Hey.” Jaejoong said nonchalantly, and checked himself up on the hallway mirror, ignoring the stare Yunho was giving him.
Yunho raised his eyebrows, “Is this how you're going to the party?”
“Yes, is there a problem?” Jaejoong replied coldly, making it obvious that he was doing this to get back at Yunho.
“It is almost zero degree out there and you're going there almost half naked. Don't you think there is a problem?”
“Party is not outside and I will wear a coat, genius.” Jaejoong rolled his eyes, and walked towards the kitchen. Yunho followed him.
“What is your real purpose? Are you trying to make me jealous? You don't have to make yourself look ridiculous just to get back at me!” Yunho was getting angry. He wasn’t in the mood to play such games.
“Who says I look ridiculous?” Jaejoong suddenly fumed.
“I just said it, didn't you hear? Who goes to a friend party like that?”
“The party is in a night club and my attire is entirely appropriate. I am not going to receive fashion classes from you Yunho.” he rolled his eyes again and went back to grab his coat from the hanger close to the door. Yunho followed and held him before he can wear it.
“What kind of people are you meeting with? Why don't I know about them?”
Jaejoong brushed Yunho's hand off. “Why? Suddenly you care about my friends now? You never asked about them when me and Yoochun went to hang out at nights in Japan. Who did you think we were hanging out with?”
“I thought you were meeting some people from Japanese entertainment industry. You had many friends like that. How come they are in Korea now?” Yunho always warned the group members to be careful while selecting the people they are hanging out with, since any bad event would affect the reputation of all group; but he didn't pry on more than that. He trusted them. He didn't know why he suddenly couldn’t trust now.
Jaejoong sighed. “Well, there were some Koreans that worked among them too. They always travel back and forth like us. Some of our Japanese friends are in here that's why they are throwing a party, okay? Will you move now? You're blocking my way.”
Yunho looked at Jaejoong head to toe once more, completely aware how breathtaking he was. Then he suddenly remembered something.
“Your old boyfriend, was he one of them?” That guy named Jongwoo looked way too old for Jaejoong. He wouldn't be dating him would he? Then suddenly Jaejoong averted his eyes; and Yunho’s heart sank.
“That guy was your ex?” Yunho exclaimed, and Jaejoong denied immediately.
“Jongwoo hyung? No way!”
“Then someone else that will be at the party.”
“Yunho, we agreed on not talking about this.” Jaejoong pushed Yunho aside and started wearing his shoes.
“Well I think you just admitted that I am right.”
Jaejoong sighed in defeat. “You told me to go to this party. Why are you making a fuss about it right now?”
“I thought you were meeting your friends not your ex!”
“Does that really make a difference? Friends that I am not dating are just friends. Nothing more. Besides, I have no idea who will be coming. So if you're okay now, I'll be leaving. Don’t wait up.”
“Jaejoong!”
Jaejoong left hurriedly and slammed the door, not letting Yunho speak.
Yunho was feeling very frustrated and angry. Mostly because he couldn't understand what was going on. 'Don't wait up?' what was that supposed to mean now? 'I'll be spending the night with my ex lover so you can take the night off as my boyfriend.' he hissed. The ironic part was this was what exactly Yunho asked for, but he wasn't happy about it anymore.
He started to pace in the living room. What were those clothes anyways? Was Jaejoong wearing them for his ex too? Yunho didn't remember Jaejoong dressing up for him. Jaejoong was supposed to be in love with him, no? Was he trying to give Yunho a message? 'You might not want to fuck me, but there are plenty of others who’ll be willing to. '
"Fuck!" Yunho swore, and threw his phone on the couch. Why was Jaejoong so hard to please? Yunho had taken him to the aquarium and they even kissed in public (practically); couldn’t he be happy with that? What if Jaejoong cheated? How was Yunho supposed to act? Was he supposed to accuse him and break up like normal couples would do or was he supposed to take it all in since his sole purpose was to keep Jaejoong there and nothing more.
He suddenly heard the door password being entered and he turned around hopefully. “Jaejoong?”
“No, it's me. Did Jaejoong hyung leave?” Changmin asked as he made his way in.
Yunho snorted. “He went to a party.”
Yunho walked back to the living room and continued walking up and down.
“And you're upset because he left you here?”
“Huh? No. I told him to go.”
“Now you miss him and you regret your decision.”
“Not like that.” Yunho rubbed his forehead and sighed. “I think his ex boyfriend will be there.” he added.
“Oh nice.. nice.. jealousy.. I like it.” Changmin smirked.
Yunho rolled his eyes at him. “It is not me being jealous. Don't you see how wrong this could go? The only reason Jaejoong didn't leave SM is me. Everything I’ve done might get ruined in a night.” Yunho was glad he could finally rationalize his feelings.
“I don't think you need to worry about that. He won't cheat on you.”
“He said don't wait up!” Yunho exclaimed.
“Did it occur to you that he might have said it because the party will be finishing late?”
“Well, you didn't see what he was wearing!”
“Okay hyung… whatever. I am too tired for this. I'll take a shower and leave again we'll watch a movie together with the guys.”
Yunho sighed and nodded.
“Don't wait up!” he heard Changmin yell after he left the room. That brat.
Yunho was not going to do what he was asked though. He sat in front of the TV and started waiting. He needed to see Jaejoong the moment he got in. After half an hour or so Changmin had left again and Yunho kept changing channels, trying to keep his mind busy. He didn't know how much time had passed but it didn't feel long when he heard the door being unlocked again.
He stood up and saw Jaejoong entering with a bright smile on his face. He directly walked towards Yunho and placed a kiss on his lips.
“I am so sorry I left like that. I couldn't stand those people. I came back as soon as possible.” he looked so beautiful. Yunho couldn't feel any anger anymore. He held his face in between his palms.
“It doesn't matter now. You came back to me.” He bent down and joined their lips, and pushed Jaejoong towards the closest wall. He ran his hands alongside Jaejoong's body.
“You wore these clothes for me right? You were trying to drive me mad.”
Jaejoong smirked and replied with a husky tone “Did it work?”
“Yes.” Yunho answered and ran back of his fingers down Jaejoong's chest feeling his skin under the thin fabric. He stopped when he reached his perky nipples; this time rubbing more roughly as he bent down to kiss and bite on Jaejoong's throat. After he directed his kisses down his collar bones, he heard Jaejoong moan and he made his decision. He was going to have Jaejoong. Right then and there.
The rest happened too fast; in between messy kisses he got rid of Jaejoong's clothes. He didn't know where his went but soon enough he had Jaejoong against the wall, their naked and heated bodies rubbing against each other. Yunho grabbed Jaejoong's buttocks and the back of his thighs before he lifted him; wrapping his legs around his waist easily as if Jaejoong didn't have any weight. He was already hard and ready, he held his erection and led it right between Jaejoong's legs, and inserted into him in one thrust. He loved the way Jaejoong's scream sounded, just like he had thought it would be. He attacked Jaejoong's neck with his lips again, his mind was hazy with the pleasure he was feeling around his penis. All he wanted was to quickly reach his release and Yunho didn't hold back, he pulled back and pushed back in faster and faster the each time.
“You like this right? This was what you wanted. You wanted me to fuck you like this.”
He continued his actions but he was surprised when Jaejoong didn't reply.
“Tell me, tell me Jaejoong. You are driving me crazy.” He caught Jaejoong's lips, continuing to thrust into him. He breathed against Jaejoong’s lips, “You happy now? Tell me you like it. Tell me you want more.” he thought Jaejoong would do exactly what he said but strangely he heard Jaejoong chuckling instead. He paused, trying to understand what was going on.
Jaejoong suddenly had a dark expression accompanied with a smile, as if he was mocking him. “Yunho-yah... you wanted this.”
As Yunho tried to understand what was going on Jaejoong kept calling him.
“Yunho… Yunho-yah.”
Then suddenly Jaejoong was not against the wall, but at his side; it was dark, and he had his clothes on.
“You fell asleep in front of the TV.”
“What happened? What time is it?”
“It is 1 am. I got bored and wanted to come back early. I’d let you sleep here but I didn’t want you to catch a cold. Get up and go to bed.”
Yunho tried to get up as Jaejoong started to walk away, but then he noticed his raging bulge. He tried to cover it in panic, wondering if Jaejoong had seen it already.
“I hope you weren’t dreaming about some chick because I don’t want you cheating on me even in your sleep Jung Yunho.”
That answered his question.
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A/N: The conversation they had during the dream was hilarious. I'd suggest you to go back and read that part again and realize how awkward it was hahahah I won't let Yunho off that easily. Anyways, I didn't take one year this time. Kind of proud of myself. :P Comments are loved! ♥
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