I've decided to start writing in this again. Most of the friends I have on here have either long retired from LJ, or long retired from my life, so this won't be a source of community. It won't be about the daily ongoings of my life, it won't be for my deepest, darkest secrets and troubled moments. It will simply be a vessel by which I can ( Read more... )

Currently in Birmingham, AL visiting my brother. I was planning on writing about my trip thusfar, but the wireless is weird and I can't use my (badger's) laptop yet. And unfortunately, my brother's laptop has the worst fucking keyboard I've ever used. Keys frequently press but don't register, and it's newer too. Just the style. Fuck ( Read more... )

yaaaaayyyy suicide~~~~

crashing insanely hard. matching the high i've been having the past few weeks. not physically hurt, most likely won't be, don't want to make another ER trip this year. besides, they'd legally have to admit me if i did.

fuck.

as an update, things still suck.

strike three, basil.

...yaaaaaayyyy

punishment.

long overdue.

I hate being such a problem.

I don't like being angry. I also don't like people who, knowing how irrational and unstable I am in such a state, insist on having me speak my mind when I'm angry. I like even less people who, after such insistence, get offended and furious when they hear what I have to say ( Read more... )

I hate being a pillow.