Silence Shattered By My Loud, Mannish Laugh

[yukinoomoni]

Hello.

It's been quite a long time, hasn't it? How are you all? What's new? What have I missed? I hope nothing bad.

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[dawnrune]

I am glad to hear that you're still alive, and I'm always hoping that you'll be able to pull through all of this crap. Say whatever you need to say, do whatever you need to do. Even though I really don't update LJ anymore, as long as I have friends still updating their journals I'll pop in and read. This is how I'll let you know I'm doing OK, whenever I'm on.

As for my life, I got through a deep, disgusting spell of depression, and am in the process of leaving a job that's been making me very unhappy and unhealthy. I don't have another job lined up, so this is risky and pretty scary, but I feel like it's the right thing to do regardless, so I'm taking the plunge. Luckily I've gotten my mom's blessing, and everyone else's who matters anyway. That's my life. It's good at the moment. I'm gonna try to keep it there.

Good luck! I hope there's something that I can do for you.

[yukinoomoni]

Take it from me: sometimes you have to take that risk. I've done it many times (probably too many), and while it does suck and you may have to depend on savings for a bit (what else are they there for?), I have no doubt you will find something better suited. I also know deeply how a toxic environment - especially work - can destroy your mind. So I guess what I'm saying is this: I'm so sorry you have to quit with one foot in the water already, but ultimately I see nothing but good can come from it. From what I remember, your job sucks? So ditch it. You don't need that shit in your life.

And the fact that you have your mom backing you is also A+ behaviour in my books.

[dawnrune]

Thanks. I just had a very strong epiphany Sunday morning where I was just like "you know what? Screw this! I don't need it!"

Basically, I've spent the past year working at a casino (which has an extremely toxic environment) on grave shift (which my body and mind have no love for) for 40 hours a week. Decent money, yes, but not decent enough for the shit I've had to deal with. My doctor's had me on like hundreds of dollars worth of supplements just so I could function on grave shift and sleep during the day at all. It's been complete bullshit and I am done. And yes, I'm thrilled that my mom approves. I was afraid she'd be pissed, but she totally saw it coming, lol.