Distance Brings You Closer chapter 4

Oct 16, 2008 19:53

Title: Distance Brings You Closer (Chapter 4/?)
Author: yukinonamida
Genre: AU, Drama, Angst, Romance, Friendship
Pairing: Nishikato
Rating: R
Summary: Ryo and Shige were the best of friends until different stresses got to them and they began to grow apart. Ryo's constant verbal abuse to Shige only increases the distance between them, until they become lost in a dangerous relationship with each other. Different feelings begin to surface but is their once strong bond already destroyed beyond repair?

Previous Chapters:
( Chapter 1 )
( Chapter 2 )
Chapter 3)

A/N: I changed the storyline a bit...so now it will be rated R from now on~

Chapter 4: Mistakes

November 22, 2008
Nishikido-san hit me today...I never thought he would go that far. It hurt...really hurt. But not only physically, you know? Ryo-chan was always so gentle to me. So I guess this means Ryo-chan really is gone. That hurt me more than any punch could. What surprised me even more is that I hit him back. Our relationship now is even below that of an employee/boss. I think he hates me. And I'm beginning to really dislike the monster he's become. I'm afraid of what he might do for revenge...it's not like I couldn't take him, but I don't want to fight with him. I'd rather just go on doing my work and ignoring him. But it seems I'll never be able to do that.

For the rest of the weekend, Shige worked hard on the assignment. He even asked for help from his co-worker Koyama Keiichiro. Together, they got it done and Shige knows that this time it'll be acceptable.

Ryo spent the weekend doing any work he could find in order to take his mind off the life he didn't want to be living. No matter how hard he tried though, he couldn't stop thinking about Shige. Everything he saw reminded me of a time they hung out together, of a joke Shige told that wasn't really funny at all, of something Shige did. He saw the smile in his eyes and Ryo couldn't stop himself from hating that he never saw that again after that night he left him in the parking lot. He hated himself for hitting Shige...for hurting him. But he couldn't control the feelings he was struggling with inside...he didn't understand them. He knew they were different, but he couldn't decode them. His way of dealing with that frustration was to hit Shige...but that only ended up hurting him more. He wanted something different...but he didn't know what. All he knew was that whatever it was kept eating at him since the second Shige left the room.
~~~
Monday morning, Shige had his assignment finished and ready for Ryo. He knocked on the door.
"What is it?" Ryo answered.
"Nishikido-san, I have the assignment." Shige said after opening the door.
Ryo looked up at him and turned away quickly, avoiding eye contact. As Shige walked closer, that same feeling began to rise up inside of him, and his heartbeat became irregular.
"Thanks" Ryo said as he blindly took the stack of papers and dropped them into a half-full basket on his desk.
"Aren't you going to read it, sir?" Shige asked, confused as to why Ryo wouldn't look at him.
"I will later...come back to my office at the end of the day and I'll tell you whether or not it's a piece of shit. Now leave." Ryo snapped, still not looking at Shige.
"Ok...I will be back later then." Shige left the room and Ryo looked at the assignment in the basket before shakily picking up and going through it.
~~~
Shige busied himself with little tasks he was assigned. It was a Monday, and you could feel the unmotivated atmosphere everywhere you went. The hours dragged on, and when it was finally the end of the day, a breath of relief was sensed from all around as the workers slowly left the building.

Shige stood up from his desk and walked over to Ryo's office door. He knocked nervously with sweaty palms, not knowing what to expect when the door was opened. Ryo opened the door and turned pale when he saw Shige standing there in front of him, looking at him expectantly.
Shige was caught off guard as well, but somehow managed to mutter "Did you read my assignment, sir?".
"Uh-Eeto..ya-yeah.." Ryo stuttered. "C-Come in.."
Ryo walked over to his desk and picked up the stack, while Shige closed the door behind him. Ryo turned around at the sound and suddenly felt anxious, as if being in the same room as Shige was intimidating.
"Here." Ryo said as he handed Shige the papers.
Shige took it and looked at Ryo curiously. "I did it wrong again?"
"It wasn't as shitty as the other two, but it still needs some work." Ryo stated, feeling even more nervous as the tension between them began to thicken and intensify.
Shige sighed dejectedly. "Now what? I don't understand! Will anything I do ever please you?"
"I told you it was better than the other two! But it has to be perfect."
"Obviously I'm not capable of doing it perfectly. Can't you assign it to someone else and give me another assignment to work on? What's the point of having me do it over and over again?" Shige said, anger rising in his shaky voice.
"Let me get this straight. You're too much of an idiot to do it well after THREE chances, and I have to come up with another assignment for you to do? What's the point in that? What good are you doing for this company anyway?" Ryo walked up to Shige and began to yell in his face. "What the hell are you still working here for anyway?"
Shige pushed Ryo away. "What, you're going to hit me again? You say I'm an idiot, but you're stupid enough to hit an employee. Who's the real moron between the two of us? You think I won't turn you in?"
The familiar feeling Ryo had been struggling with for the past few days returned, and he dealt with it the only way he knew how. Once again, he walked back up to Shige and hit him.
"You think I like doing this?" Ryo yelled as he pushed Shige to the ground. "You think I like beating you up?" He kicked him. "You think I like having to do this crappy job and deal with employees who can't do anything right? No!"
Shige coiled in pain and fear, but he stood up against his better judgement and pushed Ryo back. "Then why don't you quit! Then I wouldn't have to deal with a bastard like you for a boss!" Shige yelled as he threw Ryo into the desk. "And if you don't like beating me up then why the hell do you keep doing it?"
Ryo stood up and punched Shige in the gut, and continued hitting him with every word he spoke. "I. Don't. Fucking. Know!" He threw Shige on the ground again, knocking over one of the chairs in front of his desk. Shige kicked Ryo in the shins, causing him to fall over as well. "Would you stop, Nishikido-san?! What the hell is this proving?"
Ryo stood up and grabbed Shige's suit jacket and pulled him up. "I can't..." Ryo said as he threw him painfully against the wall. The ache in Ryo's chest was throbbing and it felt as if it was pulling at him, forcing him to go closer. He gripped Shige's shoulders and pushed them straight against the wall as he followed his instincts and drew himself closer to Shige.
"You...you drive me so fucking insane...I hate you, you know that? I fucking hate you so much." Ryo mumbled as his breath became heavy and his eyes grew dark. Shige stared at him fearfully.
"Then let go of m-" Shige began to say, but was cut off when Ryo leaned in and pressed his lips against Shige's aggressively. Shige tensed as his eyes shot open wide, and he tried as hard as he could to wiggle away. He managed to turn his head away, causing Ryo's lips to trail across his cheek sloppily. Ryo leaned his head against Shige's and breathed raggedly on Shige's neck.
"Get off me!" Shige said, blushing and too in shock to successfully gather enough strength to escape Ryo's grip.

Ryo couldn't help his face from heating up, growing a deep shade of red. He couldn't stop his pulses from rushing and his heart from beating rapidly. He couldn't understand why but the second his quivering lips met Shige's soft, warm ones, the feeling in his chest began to ease. And with each passing moment bringing their bodies closer, Ryo felt addicted to the sensation he felt and almost instinctively craved for more.

"What are you doing?! Please, Nishikido-san..get away from me..." Shige said shakily, getting anxious over the close proximity of their hips until they touched. Shige gasped and tried to push away, but it was no use. The feeling of rubbing against Shige made something in Ryo's brain snap, and he removed one hand from Shige's shoulders and turned Shige's head roughly towards his, and brought their lips together again before replacing the hand on Shige's shoulder, pushing it against the wall again. Ryo kissed him hungrily, desperate for more, needing to feel more.

At first, Shige tried hard to get away, to move away from the hips rolling up against his, to somehow detatch his shaky lips from Ryo's. But after a minute or so, Shige stopped protesting. Ryo's kiss intoxicated him. The rawness of the desire that was being inflicted upon him made Shige weak and unable to fight back. Somewhere in the back of his mind, and locked away in his heart, he knew that somewhere, deep inside Nishikido-san, his Ryo-chan still existed. He missed him and thought that maybe if he showed all his affection, Ryo-chan would resurface and come back to him. Shige hesitantly returned the kiss, and Ryo pulled back in surprise, looking at Shige lustfully before leaning back in for a kiss both engaged in. Ryo removed his hands slightly, and took them away fully when Shige didn't move away. He pulled off Shige's suit jacket and ripped his tie and threw them aside. He unbuttoned the first two buttons of his shirt but grew impatient and tore the shirt open, buttons snapping off as he scratched Shige's chest unintentionally. Shige winced but Ryo ignored it, pulling off the shirt and throwing it aside. Their kisses were breathy and sloppy, as Ryo was too lost to do anything carefully. He continued down Shige's neck and mumbled "Take it off" between each suck on his collarbone.
"E-Eh?" Shige muttered, panting heavily.
"My suit...take it off." Ryo said, his hands too busy feeling over Shige's abdomen.
"Wh-what?" Shige stuttered, confused at what on earth they were doing and why the hell it felt so good to be doing it.
"Just fucking shut up and do it!" Ryo yelled as he bit down hard on Shige's shoulder.
"Ita-..iii" Shige trailed off as the pain was soothed slightly when Ryo ran his tongue over the mark he left.
Shige took Ryo's suit jacket off and struggled with his tie, as he couldn't quite see it because Ryo had continued down his chest. Ryo stood up and glared at Shige. He pulled off the tie and threw it aside, and he ripped off his button-down shirt, throwing that in the pile as well. He stuck two fingers from both hands under the waistline of his pants and pulled Shige off the wall, kissing him hungrily and throwing him against the desk, pushing him down to lay his back down. Shige dug his nails into Ryo's back at the pain of the position. Ryo cringed at the pain and shook away from Shige, pushing him fully onto the desk and laying on top of him. He laid on top of a still panting Shige and kissing him aggressively and biting his bottom lip. Shige hit Ryo with the side of his hand but Ryo didn't stop. It felt too good. The feeling of frustration was dying away and he was becoming lost in the feeling of being with Shige in a way Ryo had never even imagined. He still wanted more though, and they both groaned loudly when Ryo grinded their erections together, creating a most luscious friction.

What...why is this happening...why does this feel so good....why do I almost not mind that he is doing this to me? Why does it feel like I am enjoying this? Shige thought as he was lost in Ryo's touches, his aggression, his growing desire.

*ring ring*
Ryo detatched from Shige's lips looked at his phone ringing on the other side of his desk.
"You have got to be fucking kidding me." Ryo grumbled as he stood up and reached over and picked up the phone.
"Hello?" Ryo said into the phone.
"Ah, Nishikido-san. I'm glad you're still there. We need to discuss something with you...what is that in the background?"
Ryo looked down at Shige who was wimpering because Ryo was sitting on his crotch. Ryo put his other hand over Shige's mouth and bit his lip, as the sound was turning him on so much.
"Nothing..it's nothing. You need to discuss something with me?" Ryo cursed his boss for staying on the phone so long and preventing him from getting back to what he was doing.
"Yes. All the department heads are going to meet with me in 15 minutes up in the 3rd floor conference room. I need you to be there." his boss said firmly.
"Yeah, okay, fine." Ryo said annoyed.
Shige looked up at Ryo and gave him a "What's going on?" look, though Ryo didn't see it, or chose to ignore it.
"I'll be there, bye." Ryo said as he hung up the phone. He looked down at Shige and sighed frustratedly as he got off the desk.
Shige sat up and looked at him. "What was that? I mean...what the hell did we just do?"
Ryo scratched the back of his head nervously and sighed, annoyed. "I don't know." He snapped. "All I know is I have a meeting to go to in 15min and I can't go with this." He said as he motioned between his legs.
Shige blushed wildly and jumped off the desk. "I'm..I'm sorry. There's nothing I can do about that." He started to walk away but was stopped by Ryo's hand encircling his waist and pulling Shige up against him.
"You're wrong...there is something you can do." Ryo responded seductively as he nibbled on Shige's earlobe and brought Shige's hand back to cup his erection. Shige whimpered as Ryo groaned in his ear.
"Wh-wh-...Huh?" Shige stammered.
"You caused this, so you need to fix it. That's a boss's job, to tell his employees to fix their mistakes." Ryo said as he unbuckled his belt and pulled down his pants.
"I don't think this is in my job description..." Shige said nervously, still not looking towards Ryo.
Ryo turned him around and kissed him, more passionately and less aggressive than before. It made Shige's heart jump and he suddenly wished that Ryo was not going to leave.
Ryo pulled away and started unbuckling Shige's belt as well. "How about we help each other out?"
He pulled down Shige's boxers and pants and then pulled down his own, so they were both completely bare and flush against each other. Ryo grabbed Shige's hand and led him to grab both of their throbbing members in his hand as he put his other hand over Shige's and squeezed, causing them both to let out load moans. He began to pump them both, as they both moaned into their sloppy kiss. After a while, they both came with a loud groan and collapsed into eachother, leaning on each other for support. Panting, Ryo kissed Shige's shoulder.
"I'm not...going to fire you...just...fix what I corrected and hand it in tomorrow..." Ryo said gently and pulled away to look at a curious looking, yet exhausted Shige. The look in Ryo's eyes and the tone of Ryo's voice created butterflies in Shige's stomach.
"R..Ryo-chan..." Shige said desperately, searching his eyes for his best friend whom he was sure was coming back to him.
Ryo smiled and kissed Shige gently on the lips before cleaning off his hand and pulling his pants back on. Shige was left speechless leaning against the desk as Ryo got dressed and raced out the door to the meeting.

Wh..what was that? What did we just do? Was that what Ryo-chan wanted? Is that why he was being all weird? Shige asked himself as he fell to his knees on the floor, searching for answers to their sinful, confusing act.

But why...why wouldn't he just tell me? What...

What the hell is going on?

Shige felt tears running down his face, and he wished Ryo hadn't left so quickly...

A/N: O_O; I don't have time to edit it, so if there are any mistakes or it doesn't flow that well, I am sorry. ;_; It is late and I shouldn't have stayed up so late but I couldn't stop writing XD. I didn't want it to sound like rape, but if it seemed like it, I'm sorry! ;_;

Do you like where the story is going? Too dirty/violent/smutty? Tell me what you think! ^^

fanfiction, nishikato

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