Insecurities
PROLOGUE
It had taken Junhyung a full year to confess to Hyunseung. The doe eyed prince couldn't notice the rapper's subtle hints so Junhyung had no choice but to confess.
"Hyung, I need to talk to you." Junhyung mumbled after their dance practice.
The rest of Beast smiled upon hearing those words. They had been waiting a long time for Junhyung or Hyunseung to make any move but since the older is more stubborn, they had no choice but to leave their hopes to the rapper. They all smiled encouragingly at Junhyung who was looking at a very confused Hyunseung.
"Why? We still need to clean up some steps." Hyunseung replied.
"It's okay, Hyunseung. Kikwang could handle us for a while, just go talk." Doojoon ordered.
"But, hyung. . ." Hyunseung protested.
"Just come on." Junhyyug mumbled then pulled the older outside.
Junhyung remembered how cute his hyung's face looked like. It was the cutest confused face he ever saw and it made his heartbeat run up to a thousand miles an hour. He exhaled the stared at Hyunseung's beautiful orbs.
"You know that I'm always thinking about you." Junhyung exclaimed.
Hyunseung was shocked for a moment. "A-are you practicing your rap?" he stuttered.
"What do you think?"
"I think. . ." Hyunseung bit his lip, unable to say anything.
Junhyung cupped Hyunseung's chin. "Wanna know what i think? I think you're beautiful. I think you have the most amazing eyes. I think you're cute when you pout after Kikwang bullies you. i think it's adorable when you're 4D because it makes you unique and. . ." Junhyung exhaled. "I think I love you."
Hyunseung was blushing furiously but he managed a small smile. "I think I love you,too."
Junhyung felt that it was the happiest moment of his life. He became so happy for months. So, how was it that he is now facing a crying Hyunseung? He racked his brains for any explanation but none came up.
"Why don't you just go back to them?! You don't seem so happy with us, anyway!' Junhyung found himself screaming.
Hyunseung looked shocked and even more hurt. "Do you wanna know why, Jun?! It's all because of you! Everytime I try to talk to you , you'd go away then totally avoid me for the whole day! When I asked Doojoon hyung to talk to you, you snapped at him also! Yoseob just couldn't handle seeing me like that so he would take me out but when we return, you were always glaring at us! What the hell was that?! You know that Yang Yoseob is almost like my brother and you're jealous?! You were also the one who suggested I visit Big bang and now you're mad?!"
"Hyunseung, I. . ." Junhyung was at loss for words.
"Wanna know why we're not working out anymore?! It's because you don't trust me, Junhyung! Whether it's with Jiyong hyung, Seungri or anyone at all, you'd get so freaking jealous but you keep on denying it!"
"Hyunseung, i do trust you."
"You don't, Junhyung." Hyunseung cried.
The rapper didn't have the strength to hug the older so he just watched his lover cry. He wished he could cry too but he isn't one to show his emotions so he stands there like a stone.
"I just don't know anymore, Jun." Hyunseung said then turned away.
"Wait!" Junhyung exclaims.
Hyunseung turned around. "What?"
"I. . ." junhyung tried to say something.
Hyunseung smiled sadly. "Jun,let's not try hanging on to something that lost its foundation."
Then Hyunseung left without turning back, leaving Junhyung with his unsaid words.
It had taken Junhyung a full year to confess to Hyunseung. The doe eyed prince couldn't notice the rapper's subtle hints so Junhyung had no choice but to confess.
"Hyung, I need to talk to you." Junhyung mumbled after their dance practice.
The rest of Beast smiled upon hearing those words. They had been waiting a long time for Junhyung or Hyunseung to make any move but since the older is more stubborn, they had no choice but to leave their hopes to the rapper. They all smiled encouragingly at Junhyung who was looking at a very confused Hyunseung.
"Why? We still need to clean up some steps." Hyunseung replied.
"It's okay, Hyunseung. Kikwang could handle us for a while, just go talk." Doojoon ordered.
"But, hyung. . ." Hyunseung protested.
"Just come on." Junhyyug mumbled then pulled the older outside.
Junhyung remembered how cute his hyung's face looked like. It was the cutest confused face he ever saw and it made his heartbeat run up to a thousand miles an hour. He exhaled the stared at Hyunseung's beautiful orbs.
"You know that I'm always thinking about you." Junhyung exclaimed.
Hyunseung was shocked for a moment. "A-are you practicing your rap?" he stuttered.
"What do you think?"
"I think. . ." Hyunseung bit his lip, unable to say anything.
Junhyung cupped Hyunseung's chin. "Wanna know what i think? I think you're beautiful. I think you have the most amazing eyes. I think you're cute when you pout after Kikwang bullies you. i think it's adorable when you're 4D because it makes you unique and. . ." Junhyung exhaled. "I think I love you."
Hyunseung was blushing furiously but he managed a small smile. "I think I love you,too."
Junhyung felt that it was the happiest moment of his life. He became so happy for months. So, how was it that he is now facing a crying Hyunseung? He racked his brains for any explanation but none came up.
"Why don't you just go back to them?! You don't seem so happy with us, anyway!' Junhyung found himself screaming.
Hyunseung looked shocked and even more hurt. "Do you wanna know why, Jun?! It's all because of you! Everytime I try to talk to you , you'd go away then totally avoid me for the whole day! When I asked Doojoon hyung to talk to you, you snapped at him also! Yoseob just couldn't handle seeing me like that so he would take me out but when we return, you were always glaring at us! What the hell was that?! You know that Yang Yoseob is almost like my brother and you're jealous?! You were also the one who suggested I visit Big bang and now you're mad?!"
"Hyunseung, I. . ." Junhyung was at loss for words.
"Wanna know why we're not working out anymore?! It's because you don't trust me, Junhyung! Whether it's with Jiyong hyung, Seungri or anyone at all, you'd get so freaking jealous but you keep on denying it!"
"Hyunseung, i do trust you."
"You don't, Junhyung." Hyunseung cried.
The rapper didn't have the strength to hug the older so he just watched his lover cry. He wished he could cry too but he isn't one to show his emotions so he stands there like a stone.
"I just don't know anymore, Jun." Hyunseung said then turned away.
"Wait!" Junhyung exclaims.
Hyunseung turned around. "What?"
"I. . ." junhyung tried to say something.
Hyunseung smiled sadly. "Jun,let's not try hanging on to something that lost its foundation."
Then Hyunseung left without turning back, leaving Junhyung with his unsaid words.