Life by Wreakage

[yrael]

So once again my mind has been reformatted to INTENSE MOVIE MODE, so now my mind is getting wreaked again by Hannibal Lecter. I have just finished watching Red Dragon, and with the many things that I've been going through, I need a moment to reflect

Comments

[daisix]

I don't think you're quicker to temper just because you're socializing; I think it might be because you're not used to telling people no when they want to hang out, so you're tiring yourself out. I think you should make some more time for yourself (and I'm not just saying that because I want to hang out with you more :P).

Of course, I might be projecting and totally full of it, so uh, take my comment at your discretion. :B

[greenteasausage]

I have not seen you for years! I must see you. I haven't seen Natalie/Taoist Wizard Of Greatness for a year either! I must see both of you.

As for the actual content of the post: that's pretty interesting. I've been having the opposite effect in college, where I just become less and less emotional. It could be the fact that business recommends we take a cost/benefit framework to judge everything we do, but I think it's also because I'm stressed by things I view as more important, like INTERVIEWS GAHHH

I agree with Daisy. You're probably spending too much time with people. Maybe go out for a walk sometimes or live alone in the library for a while and you'll start to miss social interaction more? Lol. It depends on your roomies too. I hated the little habits of my roomie for a while and it took a year to really get over them. Now we're practically married hahaha

[daisix]

Ha, you haven't seen me because I've retreated even deeper into social reclusion than ever before. I barely check my LJ and I deleted my Facebook, so it's like I don't even exist! Personally, I like it better this way: interacting with too many people at once just tires me out, so the change has made me a lot more mellow lately. Still, I should probably see people every once in a while lol.

[greenteasausage]

I am constantly interacting with shitloads of people. It IS tiring, but I don't realize it until afterwards.

[mermaid_green]

Why do you think you're just being immature? There's usually a really good reason we act this way. You said yourself what the reason was (or a good part of it): the fact that people are reprimanding you as if they have a right whenever you decide it's alright to waive something off and move on (which is healthy, sometimes, by the way). They obviously don't think you're capable of deciding when it's fair to do so, and that's frustrating. What's wrong with that

[mermaid_green]

Also, of course you feel lonely sometimes. I go crazy when I don't see people. Get depressed, cry, scream in my pillow, write bad poetry, rant on lj, scribblesketch in my sketchbook, and call people till I can't anymore (they get tired of me or are too stressed out to help out with my issues). That happened all of freshman year here (just ask Matt sometime), and I still feel that way lots of times. Aaron kept me sane for a lot of it, and now I'm working against the grain of my personality to creep out of my antisocialism (which I've got lots of).

And, believe it or not, every time I think of you, I want to hug you, too. :/ You're one of my best friends, and it's not so often I get that sort of warmth with someone. Morgan's that way, too.

[yrael]

I miss you, dear heart.

maybe helpful....

[reddest]

It is a great movie!

I don't want to project, just to share.... I find that my quickness to anger rises when I am feeling less control in my life. I reach out to little things and the people around them and do little controlling things, like snapping at someone when they do something that irritates me. It is never big, grand gestures....always the little stuff. So when I find myself quick to anger I always have to reflect on what I am feeling vulnerable to in my own life and address that. Trying to be more patient or slower to anger never seems to work. I am normally a patient person, patience itself isn't the problem.