i dont know anyone who reads this shit anymore..

i don't remember ever being this unhappy.

i've gotta kick my own ass for the next couple months.
i've screwed up like 4 times in the past 2 months.
i really need to prove myself to my mom now :[[[
im going out tonight but after this from now on its one night a week, no more partying every chance i get.
i have to bring my grades waaaay up.
and do better with my pigs.
wtfff.
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stuff is hard at home again.
its my fault, and my dad doesn't let me forget it.
im a fuck-up.
i need to get out of here.
i feel like a tacky teenager from all the 80's movies.
wtf is with this fucking teen angst shit?
why do i fuck up so much?
i wish i could make them proud.
i wish i was old enough to leave.

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A clean break is easier. You can resent it, and it heals, and you move on.
But if you leave things messy, or things don't get put right, then it just hurts forever.

Remember when we said goodbye?
I wiped my tears, you didn't cry.

Everyone has a moment..
where they know when they
wake up tomorrow
nothing will be the same.

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im not gonna say i can't live without him
i can.
i have..

i just really don't want to.

leah had a really good point today.
i dont really have high expectations.
i know what i want.. and i've had what i want.
and now i just can't find it in anybody else.

i still hope that im going to get a letter.
i think about him everyday.
i cry all the time.
i dream about him every night.
i hate how i try to get over him and i can't.. even though i haven't talked to him in 3 months.
i hate this.
i hate him.

and what i hate the most is that i could never hate him.

sometimes i wish i never met him:\

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