what is it, really, that we base our happiness on? And the question that follows, what should it be? i sometimes think that the reason for my saddness is that i let my happiness revolve around the wrong things. things i can't control. so it seems there is also an easy solution to follow.

i've been driving around for hours

thinking

wondering when things are going to get better

wondering if things are going to get better.

no, i don't want to talk about it. no, you can't make it better. no, there's nothing anyone can do. i just want it all to go away.

oh boy i have succumbed ( Read more... )

so just to let you know, deciding to give something up is never easy. you will be faced many times with feeling like you are too weak to continue. but you can't look back.

to wake up and remember how it feels.......even if it was never real...is better than knowing it was real and losing it completely ( Read more... )

NineVoltSoul: what is true love but time and trust?

your looks are laughable, unphotographable. and you're my favorite work of art ( Read more... )

i'm okay with the fact that i never get comments. i don't expect to, thats what xanga is for. but does anyone actually even read this? if anyone does i'll keep updating it from time to time. but if not. then i guess i won't. just let me know if there are any viewers.

with 80's songs stuck in my head throughout morning's melting dew
this is winter so the dew is only snow and ice
melting and refreezing twice

freshly showered with hair still half wet
very soon i'll do my chores and that will dry my hair
until then i'll put words in several rhyming pairs.

did i tell you i was in love?

with WHOM?

do you love me too?

i betcha do.

i waxed my eyebrows today.

and now they are nice.

as opposed to how they were mean earlier.

wax is magic.

but so is kool aid.

don't dip your bells in chocolate, and then eat them. they tend not to like it too swell.

i have rick james stuck in my head.