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FML. 2nd night in 3 days that i've had insomnia. last night i only passed out bc my mom had me slaving away in the kitchen for 12 hours helping her prepare for a catering event and didn't make me go to bed till 6am. of course i fell alseep ( Read more... ) -
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ok so i think I might try a weight loss supplement for the summer...I need one that speeds up my metabolism because after 4 years of binging or not eating, it's most likely slow as hell= it'll take me forever to lose weight. Plus I need something to counteract the fatigue I feel by mid day when I'm fasting ( Read more... ) -
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fuck. i seriously think i have binge eating disorder or some kind of ednos. was in negative calories for the last 2 days then today i went to bloomies to try on clothes bc i had lost weight. omg. the mirrors at bloomingdales with the tons of lightbulbs surrounding them= death. gahhh, i thought i looked good at home but when I took my clothes off in ( Read more... ) -
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gah, i'm worried about my date tomorrow. wish i was skinner :( I don't want to meet in the daytime since it's super hot and at night I can get away with wearing a jacket so I look thinner hehe. Haven't made official plans yet but I' thinking dinner somewhere in the Village, walk to the West Village and hang out in a park or at this gaming bar. Any ( Read more... ) -
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wow tonight sure was interesting :)
Today was ok, my mom fucking made me eat some spinach and cheese pasta with tofu that she cooked for me at lunch so that was a gazillion calories. It was soooo delicious though. Then I snuck half a slice of fruit cake out the fridge, bad bad, can't be doing that anymore. Dinner I so didn't want to eat. My mom put ( Read more... ) -
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gah it's so hard to exercise by myself in my room. i'm basically jumping around to electronic music, then i look at myself in the mirror and realize how stupid i look. my mom put my dumbbells somewhere i can't find them arggh. and mac and cheese is for dinner tonight. she basically told me what she's cooking for dinner everyday till friday. i told ( Read more... ) -
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Summer 2010 plans
I was supposed to go to Middlebury's French school but their fin aid fucked me over so now i have no plans for the summer since I didn't apply for any internships. I can totally see myself sleeping late and turning into a slob if I don't find something to do. I have no conception of time when I'm home so I end up waking up at 5pm, pigging out, ( Read more... ) -
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Well, hello summer
I'm back in New York now after a hellish last two weeks of school.
Seriously, I don't know why I do this to myself. I always end up screwing myself over at the end of the semester.
This semester was supposed to be the most relaxing finals week I've ever had, instead I almost killed my body.
Pulled 6 all nighter's in a row and on ( Read more... )