I wish I knew what I wanted.

Final email from Yusuke before he returned to Japan this morning:

"I do not want to say good bye.

In USA, my best friend is Amy.

I like you very much.  I love you very much. I do not tell a lie. I can promise you.

Amy is very kind for me. Thank you very much!! I am glad to meet you.

If you come Japan, please tell me. I want to meet you!! I need you ( Read more... )

It's back.
They say you never really recover. Not completely.
And it's so true.
But somehow, I'm having a hard time caring.
I'm on a self-destructive binge.

... and I don't know why I am.

But..
I guess I'd just like to publicly express these words.

Don't expect anything of me. Ever.
Never again will I go out of my way for you in the least.
Don't even expect me to answer your phone calls, should you call (which history has proven to be highly unlikely), because I won't.

This is not one of those "hidden ( Read more... )

... if you do, it is not necessary to read this, I guess.

So Tuesday, it was lovely outside, and I was horribly bored. In order to fix this Andy and I decided to journey up to Splash of Color. We got an appointment together, then returned at 7:30 to get pierced by my favourite piercer, Jill. She is amazing! And I have a huge crush on her. ;-)
Anyway ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like...
Well..
Like you want to be something special to someone.
But you know that you probably aren't.
Not like you'd like to be.
That's how I feel about him.

Perhaps it's time for me to do something..
I just don't know what.

Awake, but still I'm dreaming
And never waking up...

I'm happier than I have been in quite some time.
And yet...
I've never felt so alone as I do now.

Breathe out...
So I can breathe you in.
Hold you in...

My computer came back one day early!!!
Oh my...
Of course it's completely wiped... :-(
Oh well.
So now I'm re-creating my music files... while waxing my legs.. which is actually quite hard to do.
Andy is on his way here.. we're going to go out and kill first-borns, or something.

I really love this song..

I Miss You - Incubus

To see you when I wake up ( Read more... )