Remember when I said I wasn't interested in the girl from P-town ( Read more... )

It seems lots of girls are interested in me and I couldn't be more disinterested in them. Which is a radical change from my past in which I fell in love with almost every girl I met. Perhaps the object now is to learn what I don't want. I just hope one day I'll find something I do want ( Read more... )

I walked into the room tonight and felt the heads turn as I passed. My companion and I made our entrance into a small cafeteria which housed strangers waiting for the pressing event. All different colors littered the room and I sat absorbing the scenery when suddenly I felt my eyes lock across the room with a strangers. I noticed first her long ( Read more... )

Most people pick a direction and take it. I've spent my life day dreaming about all the directions I could take, but remained still. Only now do I have the ambivalence it must take to succeed. I thought to myself the other day, "Why not?". The question bounced around my brain as I walked around town stopping dead in my tracks in front of Saint ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just shut down. Now is one of those times. I exhaust myself with all the thinking I do.

There are a lot of things I should be doing, namely sleeping. When ever I am home I feel like I should be spending more time here. I love my room. Now, if I just had someone to snuggle with I think all would be as close to perfection as I'll ever get. However, I don't think I have time for a girlfriend and I don't have the strength for something ( Read more... )

I'm going to work on submitting my poems this winter. Today as I look through my old poems I see how much I've grown as a writer and as a person. I also see how much pain I was in and how lost I was ( Read more... )

Listening to iron and wine while looking through my cooking books makes me happy, so does hula hooping, but that is off topic. I'm not a big fan of the seasons. I enjoy California weather best, it's certainty. Fall is here which despite the changing leaves only makes me dread winter. Winter, which I think is the loneliest time for all people who ( Read more... )

I lost my mother to cancer at age 16. I don't know that I'll ever recover from it, but it has gotten easier as the years have past. I also think I am more free because she passed. Without her I've felt no weight on my shoulders to be someone my mother would approve of which has allowed me to find out who I am much more quickly than I may have had ( Read more... )

Sometimes there are moments when I am shocked by where support comes from in my life. My head is constantly taking inventory on my life and putting people into various category's. The wonderful thing is that I am learning to say yes when people offer their time to me. Which is learned behavior because my first response is to say, "no, lets hang ( Read more... )