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Nov 21, 2010 00:03

I'm struggling. I want so badly to use. The addict in me has been trying to convince myself that it's okay for me to drink, and that it's okay for me to smoke. It's not, I know that. It'll lead me right back to hell, and quickly. I'm clean, that hasn't changed, but fuck. I'm depressed, and I'm lonely. I need to make new Buffalo friends, but ( Read more... )

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birdmadcure November 21 2010, 17:17:04 UTC

Stay strong! Keep your head up, and stay strong. You'll make friend eventually. I'm not good at making friends, either, but sometimes it just happens.. you click with a random stranger. 'Tis awesome. :D

mr_stubbly November 22 2010, 20:01:32 UTC

Around kids you simply cannot drink.
I've been there though so I know how it feels to be thinking that way.
Good luck, I think you have strength to spare. All you need do is take it a day at a time.

8weeksnotme November 26 2010, 20:53:32 UTC

It's tough, especially this time of year. There is so much going on and so much access. Just work your program. You'll make it!

I have also been skipping meetings. I was on a great roll, like three or four a week, then work picked up and school started and I gave myself the excuse of being too busy. It's hard. But just know you are not alone and find a meeting. You will get a support group their and it WILL help.

Music and babies are also good distractions (and cats, too)!

ybbil06 November 27 2010, 06:32:34 UTC

I don't have a program, which is obviously a problem. I did ninety in ninety, and continued going for the first six months, but then I stopped altogether.
This is attempt #5 to get clean, and I've never made it past two years. Seventeen months tomorrow, so it's time for me to get serious and do some relapse prevention.

The holidays are hard, but they're also super magical when there are little kids around, so I'm making that my motivation.

You make it through thanksgiving okay?

I'm Libby, by the way. :)

YES! 8weeksnotme November 27 2010, 10:23:37 UTC

Yes, Libby, I did make it through Thanksgiving. There is always a tug, you know, I see the bottle or smell the wine. I actually went over to a friend's tonight to play cards and had a beer spilled in my lap. The smell was on me all night. But, I was good ( ... )

Re: YES! 8weeksnotme November 27 2010, 10:24:58 UTC

That last post was me, BTW. I forgot to log on.

Also, I'm Kirk. It's nice to meet you.