Comments | yatorade: You can't just have your characters announce how they feel. That makes me feel angry

yatorade

You can't just have your characters announce how they feel. That makes me feel angry

Nov 08, 2009 18:44

More personal crisis time. I swear, I am way to young and female to have midlife crisis. LJ is the only place where none of my real-life friends or family follows me, so it's kind of the easiest place to cry to. Anyway, two things ( Read more... )

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antigone_spit November 9 2009, 23:16:26 UTC

Oh, dear, I'm sorry you've been having all these crises. I feel really bad for not having commented on anything yet, but Amy says things so much better than I could.

1- How often do you and your boyfriend see each other? Perhaps if it's quite often, taking a break might be ideal, so you can think things over and decide if you truly love him or not? I don't know. I'm certainly not the best at relationships.

2- Have you any idea what kind of college you'd like to do to? I don't know how the system works in Canada, but I've been taking classes at a community college before transfering to a 4-year university.
I would definitely suggest applying at a college, and most of them have places where you can take placement tests, and start from there.
Taking general ed classes is a good start, and you're getting necessary classes out of the way while you decide what you want to do.

You're such a good friend, dear, and I wish you all the best. =)

yatorade November 14 2009, 04:21:41 UTC

1-Reggie and I only ever hang out once a week. Which has also beeen perfectly appropriate for us. I have a tendacy to get sick of people easily, if anything it's quite a surprise/accomplishment that we've been together this long. I don't want to do anything I regret, and I've always been very worried about people being mad at me, so I think my plan is oging to be not to dump him. But at the same time, I'm very worried that I'm 'settling' for him. Does that make sense? That I'm worried I'd never find anyone else who can stand me? Sigh. Maybe he'll just dump me so I don't have to worry about it...
2-About every term you've used has confused me. I'm not sure how one would apply to do placement test (Part of me sincerely hopes for a sorting hat, ha). I guess I should probably be talking to some people that actually are "in the know" with the canadian system, but it seems like parents/irl friends are the last people I want to ask about it.

pretensinine November 10 2009, 07:42:05 UTC

I don't know what makes Korinne think that I can say anything better than she can. For instance, nobody has worse advice on relationships than me, probably. All I can offer is my sympathy for your predicament, and my encouragement and support in hopes that things work out for the best, however that may be. I'm sorry if I sound like a greeting card. I can't help it. Is it enough to know that I don't get my sentiments from greeting cards, and I really do mean them, however cheesy they may/may not be ( ... )

yatorade November 14 2009, 04:28:29 UTC

"you're plenty young", lately I've never felt so old. Most of my friends have already graduated college, and if I wait much longer, I'll end up starting school the same year as my baby brother, the thought just terrifies me. Also, the not-doing0school yet thing I don't know, kind of feels like it's surpressed a lot of my freedom. I would really rather not be living at home anymore, but it feels like it would be foolish to even think about that before a few years of school just due to the costs and what-not. And even though I'd be thrilled to work my current job for the rest of my life, our store is one of the worst performing in the country, and I'm sure that once our lease is up in a few years, wee'll be shut down. I need something a bit more stable than that. I'm one of those wishful indiviuals who hopes to raise some children some day, and I like them to have a future with some monetary benefits. Lame lame. My dad says I should just join the military, but I couldn't see anything being less appealing than that, and in fact it's kind ( ... )

musicnscience November 15 2009, 06:03:09 UTC

:(((((
Ok, you should dm me or something and be like "I made a personal-cirsis-y lj post, go look at it?" Because now I feel sad I didn't see this a long time ago. I had no idea you were thinking about these things! D: Sometimes I get the impression that you're so much more, like... satisfied with where you are? and I feel a little jealous. Like, I've been a public wreck of confusion and decision-making crisises lately, and I guess, maybe in part because I'm never online anymore, I wouldn't have guessed you've been having any similar problems. If it wasn't so late, I would call you. You know, I'm going to go send you a long, drawn-out email.

Ha, I just checked my email for the first time in like a week, guess I should get better at responding to that, to. Anyways. Expect an email. We will talk about these things.

yatorade November 15 2009, 19:01:04 UTC

I'm sorry I didn't direct you here. I think my thought process for personal freak outs is to get it out of my system, and then try to forget it ever happened. I waited like, a week to see if anyone even replied, because, I don't know, it feels kind of embarassing? I mean, everyone has problems, but I'm always under the assumption that no one wants to hear about mine.
When you check your e-mails (well, one of them), you're going to find quite a bit of angsting in one. Wasn't in the greatest esteem-mood when I wrote it, ha.
I'm still terrifed/angry at my lack of direction in life. I mean, I try to be as positive as possible, but when I stop and think of it, I don't like anything. I like seeing my friends (to an extent), and listening to music. I don't like things lierary, scientific, I don't like most other people, I'm not a problem solver, I have a weird fear of the sick and elderly. It's like my mind has been programmed to work at a Wal-mart for the rest of my life.