You can't just have your characters announce how they feel. That makes me feel angry
More personal crisis time. I swear, I am way to young and female to have midlife crisis. LJ is the only place where none of my real-life friends or family follows me, so it's kind of the easiest place to cry to. Anyway, two things:
1-I don't think I love my boyfriend anymore. I don't know. I want to. I just, don't feel it any more. But it's not like we've ever fought (we haven't!), and I still enjoy him. He's, you know, like my best friend. We've been dating for over a year, he was my first kiss, pratically my high school sweetheart. This really worries me. I don't have any just reason to break up with him, and I've seen enough splits to understand that we wouldn't end up staying friends, and I'd miss him. I don't know. I keep telling myself that I'll feel it again if I stick around long enough, but like, the other day I faked a sickness just to trick him into going home. I need to think about this more.
2-School. How does one decide what to dedicate their lives too? I'm 20 and a half now, and I haven't started college or have any idea what I'm doing yet. I don't know what are safe options, smart choices, what I am eligible to do, or even how to apply for school for that matter. It's been so long since I've been in High School, I don't even think I could ever write a successful essay again (not that I could back then). I am uninspired, and suffer from an Office Space-esque syndrome where giving the option of being able to do whatever I'd like, I would much rather stay home and do nothing. Well,k quite frankly, if there was raises and job security, I'd be perfectly happy working at the record store for the rest of my life. Crap, I need some guidance.
That's it for my angst for now.
'Night, guys.
1-I don't think I love my boyfriend anymore. I don't know. I want to. I just, don't feel it any more. But it's not like we've ever fought (we haven't!), and I still enjoy him. He's, you know, like my best friend. We've been dating for over a year, he was my first kiss, pratically my high school sweetheart. This really worries me. I don't have any just reason to break up with him, and I've seen enough splits to understand that we wouldn't end up staying friends, and I'd miss him. I don't know. I keep telling myself that I'll feel it again if I stick around long enough, but like, the other day I faked a sickness just to trick him into going home. I need to think about this more.
2-School. How does one decide what to dedicate their lives too? I'm 20 and a half now, and I haven't started college or have any idea what I'm doing yet. I don't know what are safe options, smart choices, what I am eligible to do, or even how to apply for school for that matter. It's been so long since I've been in High School, I don't even think I could ever write a successful essay again (not that I could back then). I am uninspired, and suffer from an Office Space-esque syndrome where giving the option of being able to do whatever I'd like, I would much rather stay home and do nothing. Well,k quite frankly, if there was raises and job security, I'd be perfectly happy working at the record store for the rest of my life. Crap, I need some guidance.
That's it for my angst for now.
'Night, guys.