no place like home

[yagami_haru]

It's been a nice first weekend back in Japan with my family.  Since I was sick, it was pretty laid back.  Aunt Sayu made me an enormous cake that as waiting for me when I got off the plane. <333 No matter how sick, I can always enjoy cake.  She and Matsuda are getting married (fiiiiinally) in June!  That's going to be awesome.  I just hope I can

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[usagi_no_hotaru]

Yayy, you're finally home! It must be great so far. But keep doing what you're doing, sweetie. It'll be hard but you're a tough cookie and you'll pull through no problem.

I'm going to lie down some more and withdraw and dream of love. Haha, aww, you're so precious. I'd bake for you everyday if I could.

And about Near... again... xDD You need to chill out and take a deep breath. There's no reason for you to be nervous. Don't make any judgements until you've told him the truth. For now, you just have to wait, and just like you've been distracting yourself from wanting to use coke, you must distract yourself from thinking about Near for the time being.

... I guess it would help to have a sex buddy, eh? xD

[yagami_haru]

You should come bake for me! Have you ever been to Japan?

Even feeling crummy like this, I still am ridiculously horny. D: If I felt strong enough to go clubbing, I'd be sure to find someone there to sex me. But the thought of being in that environment without drugs now is like...meh. I think I'll just lie here some more.

[usagi_no_hotaru]

Noooo, but I'd really, really, really, really love to! Unfortunately I'm a poor college student and do not currently have the funds required to go. Pout.

Lol do you plan on lying down the whole summer? xDD

[yagami_haru]

I got up eventually. XD I can't even tell you how much easier it would be to get up if I had some cocaaaaine. ):

[chima_haiku]

Yay, Haru! I'm so happy Sayu and Matsuda are getting married, that's just awesome. And it's such a relief that you've been able to cut back so much. You're doing so well!

As for Near, look, it won't be your fault if he does decide to lock himself up in a tower like he probably wants to. As I said before, he has problems and you can't blame yourself. He'll be missing out but there's not a lot you can do about it, you know?

[yagami_haru]

They've been together for years on and off. It's been kind of ridiculous. They're not young anymore either. I think he's wanted this for a long time and she's been resisting.

Cutting back is not fun. I want it all the damn time. I'm going to have to go get some just so I don't go crazy. Just a little bit. It's not getting any easier.

Near does have problems. Mello had problems. I have problems. It's a curse or something.

[chima_haiku]

Everybody's got problems, love. I know cause I've got my share of them. Lucky for you, you're smarter than most people. You'll get it sorted out, I'm sure.

[krazeydiamond]

Sweetie. You're hitting every maternal button existing in my psyche. I understand the craving for anything addictive, and I'm certain you realize that you're self-medicating. /repetition

Withdrawal sucks, but may very well be good for the soul~ ♥

[yagami_haru]

Aw. Can you be my mom? ;_;

[krazeydiamond]

Awww... ;__; You're the sweetest thing ever.

[alloveryou]

I'm so glad you're finally home, Haru. Hopefully being around everyone that loves and cares for you (including Near), will give you even more incentive to quit your habit(s).

Aw, yay! That's so great for Matsuda and Sayu, I mean if they've been circling each other this long they might as well tie the friggen knot. :))

Near seems...difficult, but I'm sure he thinks about you and your well being all of the time. I think he just doesn't know how to approach you because he cares so much. You're growing and changing and doing your own thing and he doesn't want you to feel hindered by him. Relationships and love sucks, sry2say. :\

[yagami_haru]

I hope so. It's not getting any easier. I think it's getting worse. But being with my family does make me happy! And you're right, he must care about me, I guess. Love does suck.

Your icon is amazing.

[joyinthedance]

Haru-baby...I heard about what happened to you. You should have stayed home! Please recover quickly, love! *hugs*