I talk to boys. I let them take me out. I answer their calls and texts, I kiss them like I mean it and I let them tell me how they've never met anyone like me. Occasionally I even welcome back boys from my past who (inevitably) return to tell me they messed up and they miss me, even if I'm the one who ended things the first time around ( Read more... )

It isn't boys with mesmerizing blue eyes, boys who have a smile that lights up the whole city, boys who look amazing in suits, boys who can finish my thoughts or boys who call me "darlin".

It's YOU. YOU'RE the only one for me and I'm tired of trying to convince myself you're not.

"You know something?" I said. You're probably the only reason I'm in New York right now, or anywhere. If you weren't around, I'd probably be someplace way the hell off. In the woods or some goddam place. You're the only reason I'm around, practically."

I've cried more this past week than I have over the past three years combined.

My problem with these guys is that no matter how amazing they are and how well they treat me, there's one thing they're not: you.

I hope one day I have the courage to tell you that.

"Don't let one fucking word he ever said to change how you feel or view yourself."

Just because you don't see me holdin' on doesn't mean I've let go.

There I was on the highest mountain in all the universe ( Read more... )

It took me four or five phone calls throughout the day for you to finally pick up, only to speak about my goal as an opportunity in the past tense.

You don't believe in me now, and I'm not entirely sure you ever did. We never, ever would have worked and I see that more and more every single day...

..but why do I still care SO much?

I really couldn't explain everything even if i tried, but over a span of three days, my boys collapsed at home (again) to osu, my heart broke as lloyd announced his retirement oh anddd my life became devdas. And in true Jenny's life is collapsing fashion, michael started calling/messaging me out of no where. again.

onward & upward.

I had such a wonderful day today! I got a frame for Muma & Bill's (Clinton!) picture, I went to the village in rochester and chatted it up with Yo~!! And thenn I went to Trader Joe's. Oh, and Michael called me. Again. Just to chat. I wish I could go back in time and tell 7th grade Jenny. She'd be sooo happy slash would never believe me ( Read more... )