no trust ( Read more... )

what does it take for me to feel validated ( Read more... )

Your Love Song Is
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let's run into ol girl ( Read more... )

after almost 7 months of hiding

everything came out....

and i cried i was so happy

things can be just how i want them...

and things are really falling into place for me

now i just need to come aceoss a small chunk of cash and a car and i'll be content

:gasp:

..

weird.

today was S&BJ day ( Read more... )

last time i used this was july... but i need some sort of non judgemental outlet.
fucking work
fucking boy drama

i'm still stuck where i am.

still at home.
still no car.

i wanna have a bartending job
have some more money than i have in my account

i wanna disappear for 3 weeks to some other state and do nothing but rethink shit.
and get tan.

i never use this damn thing ( Read more... )

the trick was definitely on me.

little by little it falls away..
deception?
misleading?
ignorance?

bait and switch to the Nth degree.
with 30/20 hindsight.

with more unraveling, more waves come.

i wanna watch it all go down...

and nothing is learned.

another 40 hours worked ( Read more... )