Well what's new with me? Hummm... everything sucks. I guess you could say I am bitter, but I think I have good reason. I guess I like to be shat on because it keeps happening. and I don't know what to do about it. So I thought I might write. I hate everything. Well most of everything. My life isn't like I had hoped it would be at this point in time ( Read more... )

I tell you what the past few days have been amazing. I mean Chris has always been really good to me, But lately I feel happier and more loved than ever. I'm getting use to alot of things I can't change and going with it. But he just makes it better. Monday was a bad day. I woke up depressed. I felt like crap, No sleep really, and well it was a bad ( Read more... )

 Happy Easter!!

Today is what have been my 2 year wedding ann with Andrew. I talked to him last night, He didn't know which day it was but he said he knew it was coming up. Yeah right. We had a good conversation. lets see, He went to jail. I knew that was going to happen but for what you might wonder. Him and his mom got into a yelling match and she came up and ( Read more... )

So I feel this my be one of the only ways that I can get rid of the way I feel inside. I have no one to talk to about anything anymore so here it goes. There are 3 more days of what I guess you could still say my wedding ann. It's sad. Andrew and I aren't ment for each other thats for sure and I am going to have a baby so why do I care so much and ( Read more... )

I just don't know how to feel anymore. I am gainig somethings and losing others. I'm gaining a family, and losing a family. Andrew decided to call and tell me today that he is doing coke. That's like a Hit to the chest.  He doesn't care what happens to him. he drinks all the time. then he does coke. I just don't get it. But it really hurts me. I ( Read more... )

I am so freakin' bored!!!! Haaaaaaaa!

Well this weekend was, well interesting. Saturday wasn't anything special. Just hung out, played games, Made a little book for the pregnancy. It's going to have each week starting with the 9th week and it will have my weight and the measurement of my belly, and a picture of me. So it should be cute to watch me grow. but yeah that was about it for ( Read more... )

So lastnight wasn't the best night ever. Amanda called me and told me she went to the phsyic and asked a question about me. What I was going to have and she told her that she got a stronge vibe of twin girls, and she said they would be healthy. So that was exciting for me. So anyway I go home and tell chris all excited and stuff, and well he didn't ( Read more... )

So today is well a boring day. Not much going on. It's funny even though I am leaving I am being put in charge of different things and it seems almost like that are trying to get me to stay long with the things they keep teaching me, or more like they are pretending that I'm not. But it's ok I don't care. Hopefully soon I will know what's going on ( Read more... )