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last night was reminessent of the nights of long ago, and im not so sure that i want them to continue to be like that. i think no matter what i do there is going to be this looming sadness that wont go away. the past 2 weeks things were going in a really good direction, and now they have seemed to make a ( Read more... )

so yesterdays league was a bust, i got tipped shitty, and people were rude and disrespectful. im so going to tell my boss to pull me from that shift if i dont do good on it next week ( Read more... )

so i have to work today at 1, and there is this league that comes in, and my X and his dad are on it, and im really nervous that theyre going to fuck with me. Hopefully they will act like adults and just play pool and be civil, but thats a far stretch ( Read more... )

i miss you, i hope when you come home on friday, its for good. I hate not being able to see your face in the morning. ah well, at least i know that at this time tomorrow ill be seeing you. you make me uber happy, thanks love.

my X called me a slut tonight, what a fucking loser.

so ya yesterday was eventful, but you going to stay here with me which makes me so happy you dont even know. im glad that i got to wake up to you this morning, and im even gladder that i get to go see you in a little bit.

maybe the fact that i wasnt honest with you is why im feeling like this right now, or maybe the fact that i was too scared to let you in again is why im feeling like this, regardless of what i did i feel like shit and i have this sinking feeling that its not going to work if i can only see you on the weekends, but then again i feel so selfish for ( Read more... )

i just got home from taking tiffany to the ambulatory, poor thing has the most hurendous tooth ache, i have to be up at 9:30 to be at my hair apt by 11, so i can get all dolled up for the wedding. ben took most of his shit to ferndale today, this made me sad, i guess i really dont want him to move, like totally dont want him to move, and i told him ( Read more... )

so ya fuck pj and the ship he rode in on, im through with the drama and nonsence that comes along with dating someone who has his head up his dads ass. anyways, the past week and a half have been fucking rockin, ive been hanging out with the good old boys again, gettin drunk with tiffany and just laughing it up. i got a hair cut and i love it, i ( Read more... )

this weekend was the funnest ive had in a while. pj got to crash at my house thursday, friday and saturday!. work friday sucked, not suprising. saturday i hung out with pj and his dad and went to this bbq thingy which was fun, then we came back and watched a movie. Today we got up early and went to his house and made breakfast for his family, then ( Read more... )