im sick.
n cold.
n angry.
n mad.
n everyother negative word ever invented.

i hate how things turn up.
and i wish i could read minds.
my life would be so much easier.
everything that happeneds..
make you think..
where am i?
what am i doing with life.
why arent i worth it.

i have neer been this happy.
i cant even write in words what i feel.

And to be completely honest 
You're not like all the rest

the world never chanes.
names change.
and places change.
and time continues to go on.
but everything stays the same.
and it always will.
so therefor you...
have nothing to look foward to.
nothing to hold on to.
and nothingg new.
the new quickly turns to the same.
thats life.

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i just found out.
my life is a lie.
the last 2 monthes a lie.
and me friends knew
people just sat n watched
is that all i am
it must be
im not even mad at anyone
well except that piece of crap
but other than that.. im not mad
its just that i dont feal anymore
nothing is real
its like without him
and without ever having him
and him never really wanting me
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LAST DAYS OF SUMMER

Ashleys Party!


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10 pm [ 1 am] - plane takes off from oreagon ( Read more... )

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i knew i was back the second i got to the airport. 
it was just so dirty.
and when we went outside.
the air was dirthy.
it was noisy.
and smellly.
i want to go back.
i dont like it here.
i dont have that home feeling i thought i would.
this isnt going to make sense to anyone.