Hey all you wild magnolias just waiting to bloom…

[xsethsownstarx]

Okay so Ran suggested Robbie do me a reading last night and I dunno what told him to but man it was a big EPIC reading!

I guess I can no longer ignore my strength and power sleeping inside me or I risk self-destructing. Any time someone has tried to show me I have strength or encourage me to take control I retreat into flakey and spastic. “I can’

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[talalkhemiyst]

<3 luff for the new layout! I know it's just the words that have changed but words are so powerful!

And I'm so happy that I was able to have a hand in this and reading this is about to make me cry knowing that you are healing and are going to be whole. Maybe not right away and that's allright. But it's coming.

I can feel your faerie wings growing, stretching and building the strength to fly! <3

[xsethsownstarx]

Thank you sososososossoooo much for the reading. You had a major hand in it (as did Ran ♥). I am so grateful to have you both as my dearest friends.

I just had to change the words when I looked over the post. They didn't suit. I needed to have words of power to myself (bc I know how powerfull words are!)

btw I didn't think to ask before I left - where do I post my review for this fantastik reading on prisphoenix ?

[talalkhemiyst]

just leave a comment on the tarot reading entry. I don't have the link right now but you can use the tags to find it.

[juliedoc]

Wow, I always knew of your blazing bright nature, but I never really knew you feared it. You are one of those people, I think, that is strongly connected to day. It makes you want to uncover the truth, to blow the doors off things, as it were, to throw caution to the wind. Day people tend to be bold. It seems, unfortunately, you find that kind of treatement anywhere in this world when you have a strong time affinity; strong nightside people are seen as overly cautious, and taught to fear the dark, strong daylight people are told they're upsetting the status quo, that they're not cautious enough, and that we need to tone it down. In an ideal world, all people would be in perfect balance, but this is not an ideal world

[xsethsownstarx]

It is a conundrum for me to be a day energy sort of person when I am most alive and inspired at night. But at the same time I am afraid of the dark... How odd.. What does one do with that?

Sadly it was not only online that I encountered the "you're doing it wrongs." My worst interactions were actually with a study group here in LaPorte and a group in Mishawaka. Both made me feel fluffy and silly and useless... How sad they made me..

And thankfully I do understand now that only I can decide what's right for my magyk, so it will only get stronger as long as I listen to it with my heart.

[juliedoc]

I've been trying to figure it out; my system is in its infancy and may be a bit too polarizing. It could be that you gather your dream energy during the day and release it at night. I think everyone is kind of taught to be afraid of the dark, it's filled with the unknown. Day people are the kind of people who like to make things known. Day and night aren't just times, they're kind of like yang & yin, but I haven't meditated or written enough about it. You may be more balanced timewise than I had thought. It's a rare person who is (I admit I'm quite deeply nightside with all the pleasures and pains that come with it.) I also think it's important to actually rest during the time your energy is affiliated with. You are probably just not as free during the day as you would like or need to be

[xsethsownstarx]

I would be very interested in hearing more about the day/night energies as you figure things out..

Everyone can be an asshat sometimes. The important part is in realising it and repairing the damage and being aware of it.

[calm_isolation]

Congratualtions for realizing the power within you that we all knew you had all along. With power comes confidence, something you need very much.

I have to say first of all talking to trees is my favorite past time so anyone who said you were crazy is an asshole. You are an alternative druid. Second please don't lump pagans and wiccans together.....there are a lot of pagans out there who are not wiccans and who do not conform to the elitist attitudes they sometimes take with their faith. I have always had a problem with 'real' or 'coven'ed wiccans because everything is a secret which to them must feel special or personal but to me makes them seem almost ashamed and faith is not something to be ashamed of it is something to rejoice. So rejoice in your strength and let yourself bloom.

[xsethsownstarx]

I love trees. I have always been fascinated with trees and I chagrin that my apt has nowhere at all for me to plant anything.. Alas houseplants would only die by my hand as many have before..

I totally understand that pagans and wiccans are not the same thing. But I lumped them together in my statement simply because my detractors have come from both branches. It was even more upsetting for me that the pagans didn't understand what I was doing. I wasn't really surprised by the wiccans because, as you say, they are much more strict and secretive and rules and laws and such. But I thought the pagans would be more accepting since they were not of a specific path.. but they were not..

[fearnottheflame]

What a glorious breakthrough!! I can not wait to see what comes of it. To see one of my oldest and dearest friends and Family stepping into her magnificent self is one of the joys of my life. To get to walk beside you and ride together sometimes on our float for the fierce is just as inspiring to me as it is to you.

Oh I worked more on my stones and I wanted to share something they whispered to me because I felt it was for all of us-it's my answer tothe one lj writer's block prompt about telling a profound story in a simple six words-

"Beautiful butterfly, what do you become."

[xsethsownstarx]

It's odd.. I feel almost displaced.. but not in a bad way.. just as tho I am re-learning to walk and deal with this big world around me in a whole new way...

Oh I love that... I think I'll keep it.♥