Well, what do you know. I finally finished that stupid jellyfish watercolor. It looks like crap. :)

Bland.  That's how I'd describe myself.  It's like Being John Malkavitch.  I'm sitting in my head, watching myself make the decisions I make, knowing that my brain is dumber than it should be.  I have ideas that come at inopportune times to bring them to fruition, which inevitably means they never come to pass.  Either I forget about them, or I ( Read more... )

Life in the doldrums is testing my patience. A test I'm probably failing. Whoever said you have control of your own life is full of shit.

Dear department of Forensic Science ( Read more... )

you push me away
every time i talk to you.
what do I do wrong?

People are just so weird. Well I mean... maybe I get what's going on. But it sounds way too egocentric to be true. He probably just lost interest in being friends. Typical!

Whatever, two more weeks until I'm home free!!

Just kidding, I need a 90%. I think. My teacher curved the first test so my grade ended up being a "C" but he gave no number approximation.

Fuck it, I'll just shoot for a 100%. Must. Understand. Everything. Completely. Thank god for YouTube and Freelanceteach.

/nervous breakdown ( Read more... )

I feel really low. I haven't been this depressed for a few years now but I'm back to that feeling like my brain just isn't good enough and there's nothing I can do about it. I... I don't understand how other people do it. It's just ONE CLASS. I just need to pass with a C, but I don't know if I can even manage that. The information... I just ( Read more... )

Maybe it's because I didn't sleep well last night... Today just feels weird ( Read more... )

An old online friend's birthday is this month. Haven't talked to her in... uh... 6? 7 years? Oh Manda, I hope things have gone well for you. Last I heard, you were engaged. I'm pretty sure, anyway. I remember when I first met you in the Worlds 3D chat, in the main Hanson room. Oh man, those days. Too bad this poor little netbook can't run ( Read more... )