Cannonball into the water...
Summer is in full swing. I truly cannot complain. Although the job I was banking on fell through, I'm still working at Banana and enjoying the intense amount of free time that I have. We put a pool in at the beginning of summer, so I've been draaaankin' poolside and getting myself nice and tan all day. Other than that, I've been chillin with my loves, spending way too much money, giving my liver a rest... NOT, and enjoying the hell out of my summer. This is the best time of the fucking year and I love it. "Good times, sunshine, and summertime." I really cannot complain. It's IDEAL.
Except that I'm still having the same effed up dreams. Teeth. Yeah, freaking teeth are haunting my sleep. According to my dream dictionary... "Not a good omen. Toothache suggests you are not happy about a certain situation. Lose a tooth and you are afraid of losing a loved one. Lose all of them and you are full of anxieties about the future. An extraction shows you are suffering at present. False teeth forecast unhappiness in love and a major crisis on the way. Bad or broken teeth show that a relationship that is important to you is breaking down." Yeah, great. And I know what it's about. 'Cause he's in every dream, too. It just really sucks. This weekend will be 3 months of silence... how enraging is that? It just REALLY upsets me the way things have worked out, and no matter how hard I try to pretend I'm ok and that it doesn't still bother me, it does. One realization Matt and I came to? "The fact of the matter is, we don't fall in love with the sane, quiet ones that you always hear about in movies, the ones that compliment our lives and make us 'want to be a better person.' We fall in love with the ones that are entirely insane, 'effed up,' and the worst people to get involved with... ever. Why? Because we see the good in them, we've broken through to the 'real' person hidden behind the mask, and we love them with every fiber of our being, until every ounce of every fiber has been washed away to nothingness. And after we've broken through and made that incredible connection with that person, it's hardly possible to let go. Because you not only love their innate ability to make life more interesting and worth living, but you love who you are when you're with them, as cliche as it may be. You just can't move on. Living without them gets harder every day, not easier. Either way, you know you can physically live without them, but then what would be the point?" I don't want to.
"I just wonder, do you ever think of me anymore?"
In other news... I love my friends. They're freaking amazing. Summer is what SDub love is all about. <3
"These are my people, this is where I come from.
Givin' this life everything we got and then some.
It ain't always pretty, but it's real.
It's the way we were made, wouldn't have it any other way.
Yeah, these are my people...
stan771: she was like, "im glad you all got drunk and had a good time"
stan771: and my dad is like, "see you can have fun without going crazy and doing anything illegal"
stan771: and my mom was like, "mark, they were drinking underage, thats illegal"