I'm in math class. I can't focus. Kris just is... Why the fuck do i like her so much. We were together, so fucking cool, made me fight better and now it's doing the opposite. This feeling is tearing me apart. I wait and wait to be noticed by you. I don't want you to be a slut, i want to be a light to you. I'm holding back tears as i'm just sitting ( Read more... )

I had the answers to all of my questions and when i did ask the questions i wanted answers to i was disappointed with the answers because it seemed so simple.

I don't know what's going on. I want Kris to like me and for me to not like her so much like i do now haha.. I want that ghost in the shell tattoo atm ass well. I want to have more people to talk to. I want to start training hard again. I want to get my body stronger. I want Kris to like me. I want some pot. I want something. I want anything. I ( Read more... )

Let's see what i did today. Which is Sunday. I woke up late as usual, but feeling really good like i usually do when i'm sore from training or lifting, but theres always this underlying sadness or depressness about Kris not liking me and just things not being as cool as it used to be. ANyways, i wake up at like... 1:40sh, i message Lindsey on aim, ( Read more... )

It appears Kris doesn't like me in a, "hey i wanna hang out and be with u to a degree," kind of way. Now i feel like i'm just ANOTHER boy to her. She doesn't txt me, answer my txts, instant message me, answer myspace messages, call me, wanna chill, and i dunno man... Wtf man, come on. WTF. Things used to be so much better, goddamn this shit has ( Read more... )

Did i mention that i want The Laughing Man symbol from ghost in the shell s.a.c tattoed on me somewhere? Well, i do. Word?! WORD bitch!

Hrmm, what will i do? It's Friday niggas!! Lol, might as well be anyother day cuz i dunno what i'm ganna do special today except maybe hang out with Kris. We hung out Sunday, and that was cool. Were sorta not seeing eachother anymore, but kinda are? I'm leaning towards the kinda not.. It sucks. I wish she liked me alot still, but i fucked it up by ( Read more... )

Someone (anyone..): Hey what's up ( Read more... )

Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk offffffffff

Well yo i'm bored, lonely, jaded, and just depressed to the way i've been treating my body and not training as hard as i usually would. This past week is full of just killing myself more and more with drugs drugs and more drugs. Me and Kris had a discussion on friday night about her hanging out with me alot, cuz she has so many friends so to her ( Read more... )