My ghost is lost
Someone (anyone..): Hey what's up?
Me: Not much nigga, what u up to?
Someone: Nm man, you wanna chill?
Me: Nigggaaa plz, course i do. I'll be there in 10 mins.
Someone: Good deal, we'll figure out something to do ^_^
How nice would it be to get a txt or msg like that when i'm this bored with my lonesome. Anyways, i'm here again laying in front of my computer... On a Saturday night, again. Depressed and bored as fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, again!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD SEEMS LIKE IT'S PASSING BY ME WHILE IM TRAINING, AND NOW THAT I HAVE FREE TIME AND ACTUALLY TRYING TO DO SOMETHING PEOPLE MY FUCKING AGE ARE SUPPOSED TO DO-- IT'S STILL PASSING BY ME. FUCK OFFF WORLD, FUCK U! FUCK UR MULTIPLE FRIENDS, FUCK UR TXTS AND PHONE CALLS U PEOPLE GET FROM UR MANY FRIENDS! MUST BE FUCKING NICE! FUCK OFFF WORLD, SERIOUSLY FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!! IM SICK OF LAYING IN FRONT OF MY COMPUTER AND WATCHING ANIME ALL DAY EVERY FUCKING WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!! FUCK U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hrmm.. Fuck off? ANyways let me update this thing like i'm suppose to. Well yesterday i had a good training session, did gi then no gi and it felt fuckning great. I like training hard, just need to get back into it like i used to be. Well while i was training i got a txt from Kris and that's always awesome man, basically sseeing wats up, but i was training so couldn't take advantage of it so then i txt her after i was done and i dunno i guess it was to late or she just found something better to do then hang out with my uncool self, cuz she answered back how she just got to her friends house andddddddd that was the last i heard from her.. I dunno what's up with her, i would be naive as fuck to think she really does like me like i like her.. She says to not worry, that she likes me, just let it happen (like something will actually happen?).. Wtf am i waiting for? WHy do i like her so much? Haha mother fucker.. Well i'm basically just not worrying about it now, and just hoping were still, "seeing eachother," and that she doesn't stop liking me and starts getting hit on and starts liking someother boy, which is probably happening every week.. And cuz of me waiting for this girl i'm fucking miserable. Seriously. This is killing me. I need something.. Anything man. I dunno, what does she see in me anyways? I don't have million friends and people calling me or have to call to chill with whenever i'm bored, all i have is rego, pk, juan, and i used to be able to chill with Kris almost liberally(or atleast it felt like it..) but now it's a fucking mission i've given up on and just decided to let her come to me instead i guess.. Or in her words, "just let it happen."
I'm just so depressed man. I dunno why. I'm tearing up typing that i'm depressed man wtf is this?! I NEVER used to be depressed, before i would train everyday, SEVEN FUCKING DAYS A WEEK, and that was literally all i would do. Not hang out with any friends or do anything, i would train go home look at fight events, play video games, and try to find something to do and if i couldn't find anythign to do i would just be like w/e and enjoy what ever i was doing.. NOW it's so weird, everything is so... I dunno. I guess before i was stuck in my own little world, then as soon as i started liking a girl for real everything got harder to do, i actually wanted free time to spend more time for myself and have fun. Now it all seems so fucking fake.. And i dunno yo... I'm just being a bitch, and doing what bitches do which is bitch.
I honestly don;t know what to think or do about anything anymore, this is just me writing on and off in this post of how i feel and i dunno if it's in order or not. WTF, lmao. I'm talking like people are actually reading this, hahahaha i'm going crazy.. Peace, i'm ganna be in same place, which is on my bed in front of my computer watching anime all day and lurking. Peace.
Me: Not much nigga, what u up to?
Someone: Nm man, you wanna chill?
Me: Nigggaaa plz, course i do. I'll be there in 10 mins.
Someone: Good deal, we'll figure out something to do ^_^
How nice would it be to get a txt or msg like that when i'm this bored with my lonesome. Anyways, i'm here again laying in front of my computer... On a Saturday night, again. Depressed and bored as fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, again!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD SEEMS LIKE IT'S PASSING BY ME WHILE IM TRAINING, AND NOW THAT I HAVE FREE TIME AND ACTUALLY TRYING TO DO SOMETHING PEOPLE MY FUCKING AGE ARE SUPPOSED TO DO-- IT'S STILL PASSING BY ME. FUCK OFFF WORLD, FUCK U! FUCK UR MULTIPLE FRIENDS, FUCK UR TXTS AND PHONE CALLS U PEOPLE GET FROM UR MANY FRIENDS! MUST BE FUCKING NICE! FUCK OFFF WORLD, SERIOUSLY FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!! IM SICK OF LAYING IN FRONT OF MY COMPUTER AND WATCHING ANIME ALL DAY EVERY FUCKING WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!! FUCK U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hrmm.. Fuck off? ANyways let me update this thing like i'm suppose to. Well yesterday i had a good training session, did gi then no gi and it felt fuckning great. I like training hard, just need to get back into it like i used to be. Well while i was training i got a txt from Kris and that's always awesome man, basically sseeing wats up, but i was training so couldn't take advantage of it so then i txt her after i was done and i dunno i guess it was to late or she just found something better to do then hang out with my uncool self, cuz she answered back how she just got to her friends house andddddddd that was the last i heard from her.. I dunno what's up with her, i would be naive as fuck to think she really does like me like i like her.. She says to not worry, that she likes me, just let it happen (like something will actually happen?).. Wtf am i waiting for? WHy do i like her so much? Haha mother fucker.. Well i'm basically just not worrying about it now, and just hoping were still, "seeing eachother," and that she doesn't stop liking me and starts getting hit on and starts liking someother boy, which is probably happening every week.. And cuz of me waiting for this girl i'm fucking miserable. Seriously. This is killing me. I need something.. Anything man. I dunno, what does she see in me anyways? I don't have million friends and people calling me or have to call to chill with whenever i'm bored, all i have is rego, pk, juan, and i used to be able to chill with Kris almost liberally(or atleast it felt like it..) but now it's a fucking mission i've given up on and just decided to let her come to me instead i guess.. Or in her words, "just let it happen."
I'm just so depressed man. I dunno why. I'm tearing up typing that i'm depressed man wtf is this?! I NEVER used to be depressed, before i would train everyday, SEVEN FUCKING DAYS A WEEK, and that was literally all i would do. Not hang out with any friends or do anything, i would train go home look at fight events, play video games, and try to find something to do and if i couldn't find anythign to do i would just be like w/e and enjoy what ever i was doing.. NOW it's so weird, everything is so... I dunno. I guess before i was stuck in my own little world, then as soon as i started liking a girl for real everything got harder to do, i actually wanted free time to spend more time for myself and have fun. Now it all seems so fucking fake.. And i dunno yo... I'm just being a bitch, and doing what bitches do which is bitch.
I honestly don;t know what to think or do about anything anymore, this is just me writing on and off in this post of how i feel and i dunno if it's in order or not. WTF, lmao. I'm talking like people are actually reading this, hahahaha i'm going crazy.. Peace, i'm ganna be in same place, which is on my bed in front of my computer watching anime all day and lurking. Peace.