the other night me and julie were hanging out and thru conversation and stuff we talked about the different boys in our lives. and i had to pick one for something, and i tried to think of everyone i ever cared about (boy-wise) and all of sudden it hit me that there was only one that i really did care about. hes the only one i ever seriously loved ( Read more... )

i slept till 1 30 today. i had this one really long dream, which is weird because i woke up a few times for like a second n then drifted back into it. that never happends to me unless its a bad dream. but this wasnt bad. it wasnt anything but strange ( Read more... )

i tried to just smile and walk away...but then he grabbed my hand and hugged me. and i just started to cry again...i know it was love. i know because i still feel it. and he still feels the same in my arms. and we are ment to be. but we never will be. hes my soulmate, i know that for sure. how do i explain him to anyone? how do i explain what i ( Read more... )

yea so...yesterday morning kelly calls me hysterical crying that luke died. not just died...killed. hit by a train. yea. it hurts. i cant think about how hes gone. we were never really "friends" exactly. we talked more early in highschool. but still, i just spoke to him last week, and now... all day yesterday n today its all anyone is ever talking ( Read more... )

i dont think anyone has ever been so exact inside my head ( Read more... )

i ended up not going to bed till 3 last night. so i decided to skip speech this morning. i went to philosophy thou, my professor was like "your italian right?" and i was like yes and hes like "come stai principessa?" and i just laught and said "principessa e friggido" and he laughed. it was good times. now he calls me principessa all the time thou ( Read more... )

last entry for the day i promise ( Read more... )

i love wednesdays...even thou i cant spell it. i wake up late...or late for school days, and get home usually by 1 the latest. its awesome. i have time to nap and do homework and watch boy meets world. only bad thing is i have shitty work at 4. but i can handle it as long as dougs not manager tonight. im putting my 2 weeks in hopefully this week, ( Read more... )

today has been just really really good. i felt like shit last night and almost didnt go to math today, but when i woke up i forced myself to go. i didnt leave my house till 10:05, i figured i would be late. on the way there my mo had turned my cd off so the radio was on and a string of awesome songs came on, including "today is the greatest day of ( Read more... )

alright, so, since i dont trust anyone. my journal is mostly going to be friends only. im tired of people lieing to me about seeing this thing and im not willing to give it up, so now i have to inconvenience myself by making every god damn entry friends only. thanks.

want to see my journal? now you have to ask.