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[xcrashgirlx]

I want change.

Today I was helping my mom fill out online job applications (she's not very computer savvy) and I found myself thinking about the schools she was applying for and how cool it would have been if I'd gone there. She mentioned a high school in the next town over that's a lot like the elementary/middle school I liked. And I found myself

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[faithfulfaerie]

THIS I want to leave, and at the same time I want so badly never to have to. It's so confusing. IS EXACTLY WHAT'S FUCKING UP MY MIND.

i want to run and such, but i'm afraid of falling without the safety net of college and this life i've got now.

[xcrashgirlx]

I don't know how to deal with this, because the Beloved are so important to me, yet I'm finding myself considering asking my mom to enroll me in that charter high school where I won't have to deal with all the drama and I can have a chance at starting again... again.

Because as long as I can see them and hear them and know they're close, I can't leave them.

But I don't WANT to be the awkward new kid again. I don't WANT to start over.

Ugh.

[faithfulfaerie]

same here. i have a good thing going here: good grades, nice people, on the school paper, etc. but i just want to leave.

i want to start over, to go somewhere new. but i'm afraid of not having that safety net of a college education. (and by the time i'm done with college i'll be too old to start over).

GAH, LIFE IS SO CONFUSING.

but here's to us. doing whatever and hope we're getting in right.

[xcrashgirlx]

You won't be too old. Out of college is the PERFECT time to start over.

Here's to us, and living without strings.