I wish I could fall asleep and not wake up for a week or two.... maybe this will all be a dream... but I know better... the only thing to do is drink more, sleep more, smoke more....

I'm insanely happy. I couldn't ask for anything more in my life. Well, maybe my bills paid and my license. But none of that really matters right now. I never thought I would find someone like Josh. No guy has ever treated me the way he treats me. We moved in together. A nice top floor 2 br apartment with a full finished attic. We rescued two ( Read more... )

everything i'm doing is wrong.
i want to purge every part of me and start over.
i want a new body, a new face, new style, new house, new car, new family
not new friends.
i love my friends.
i want a new me
a new life.
i want to run until i puke.
until i'm nothing.

i'm deathly afraid that he's going to make you choose between him or me.

i couldn't stand to lose my best friend

i'm going to grow old with eighteen thousands cats and be miserable.
i have come to terms with the fact i will never be good enough.

by Emily Dickinson

HOPE is the thing with feathers ( Read more... )

i want to be part of something beautiful.

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K: two parties, huh? that gives you more options to find someone to kiss.
J: no, not really.
J: its just family at my cuz' and anyone at fry's would be a waste.
j: so i'm holding my new years kiss for you.

 i get to see joey on saturday!