i am suprised that i dont cry everytime someone brings it up. it hurts a lot.

he took the words out of my mouth. im going thru the motions but im not actually dealing with it. and i hope i do before he goes. i dont want to feel heartless when he leaves and have it take days or months to deal with it. 

i feel like crying.

somewhere in the last 10 minutes i started to feel empty.

i dunno what happened.

buh

please dont touch me ive come too far to let you bring me down i quietly melt down and consent to you if only just to ball. i call for the witness presentthe facts right down the root of things in black and white you swore thered be no strings this time there will be no long goodbye. as i stare through you and i stand quite still and an alarm ( Read more... )

i hate when youre talking to someone and they just start talking or talking to someone else and act like you werent even saying anything.

its really annoying.

how can you jsut act like you werent even hearing what i was saying you were even paying attention!

really makes a person feel worthless.

why do i even bother talking to you?

i have been meaning to add things to the list of hates. not enough time for that i dont think lol ( Read more... )

he came home yesterday kind of out of nowhere ( Read more... )

sometimes, i wonder why i have a livejournal.

piece of shit.

i feel baf for technically challenged people.

also i had to pee for hours...

about 5 or 6 to be exact. i think more like 6 or more...

well i finally peed, it was fucking great and i feel human again

ok,

lighten up.

thats it.

stop taking everything so god damned seriously. its really fucking annoying. i make jokes, get the fuck over it.

i have nothing to complain about.

its very strange.

but i do miss kristian. he makes me sleep better. and whn hes out being a badass i will miss him terribly.

nothingto saydont feellike typing im out.