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[x_zeitgeist]

Title: Trust.
Pairing: Matt/Brian (A7X)
Rating: R.
Summary: Matt doesn't know what the word trust means.
Genre: Deathfic.

Comments

[remenissionsx]

*sniffles*
That was fucking beautiful.
Really sad.
This was really well written, I like how we don't exactly understand until the last few lines.

I heard they are close to finding a cure. Or at least are closer than they were.

[remenissionsx]

Hmm, i don't know if I should've used the word 'beautiful'. I couldn't really think of anything else.

[x_palimpsest]

Thank you so much =] Hehe, and I know that word-stumped-ness... I now have 'transition' written across the back of my hand after a frustrating ten minutes of beating my head against a wall!

That was really what I was aiming for, because I was just making tea and those last lines came to me. And I thought... 'I know what's going on... I'm just gonna write without explaining!' Because I tend to do that a lot anyway >> But it works okay with first person, because in this Matt's just about to commit suicide and he's completely mucked up and writing notes mostly to himself. It's all this guilt and rage that makes him near incoherant.

And really? A cure? O_O Fucccck yesssss. Thank you for your comment, lovely, and really, thank you a lot for reading ♥

[remenissionsx]

I once spent a whole day at school trying to think of a word and when I got home I though of it and screamed it out.
My mother was a little confused [the word was superficial].

I think that incoherency of this was what made it so great. It's slightly confusing out first but eventually you get more information and then you realise that there is no happy ending.

It really scares me sometimes, how easily it can be contracted.
There was a guy here, awhile back who had AIDs who purposely passed it around, he was only 16 or 17 and had ended up getting 9 girls infected.
I was told 4 of them died and not long after so did he.

[xxtipofmytongue]

Wow, that was really good. I'm glad you wrote something about it, because it's a big issue. Very well written. <3

[x_palimpsest]

Thank you so much =] This is actually late. It was meant to be for World AIDS Day but after finishing a load of J-Rock fics I was completely outta MattBrian inspiration O_O So thank you, not only for reading and commenting, but for realising what a huge issue it is ♥

[megalolz]

I literally gasped when I saw that you'd finally written another MattBrian fic and now I have tears in my eyes. That was just so beautiful and sad and tragic and I'm gonna use beautiful again because it was beautifully written. I love you. XD

I only have a certain group of charities that I give money too, but AIDS research is definitely in that group.

[x_palimpsest]

I know! The MattBrian has been absent. It's strange, because when I'm going through cravings and I'm completely without MattBrian-y goodness... I write it... and yet when I have about a zillion MattBrian roleplays I don't write it at all despite all the extra inspiration xD So I just have this huge mofo of a book full of ideas I keep getting. In fact, I have another two ideas, but I'm going to leave it for a while because the subject matter of one will make it seem as though it's relating to this, when I don't want that, I really want it to stand on its own... but then again maybe as a 'what if' scenario it'd work... Lmao, I'm such a geek for writing my thought trains here. Ahem. Oh! And the other idea's really depressing, so I can't write that because in my current state I may break down. So fluff? Whatcha think about MattBrian muscular fluff?

That's so awesome =] I love you so much for that ♥ My three charities are the RSPCC, AIDS Research and Sense, which is for blind and deaf people.

[megalolz]

I even pimped this fic in my journal, just because it's so good with the writing and the message and everything. I've been getting by with the lack of MattBrian fics by constantly posting in a MattBrian pic thread over on Avenged MB. Though there are a few fics being constantly updated on a regular basis so that's awesome. But as I keep saying, you are THE best MattBrian writer and quite possibly one of the best fic writers ever. I can't wait for whatever Bratt fic you do next because you truly are the best. :P And the carry on from what was mentioned up there, I'm begging you to do the second part of that gym story. XD And Bratt muscular fluff would be fantastic. We need some fluff after this fic. :P Though I am a bit of an angst/hurtcomfort whore. So it's all gooood.

My group of charities mainly consists of the main cancer charities, NSPCC, AIDS research, RSPCA and something else, can't remember which though. I often support the Big Issue guys aswell, because that helps out.

[x_palimpsest]

*dies in a puddle of fangirl goo* I actually adore you right now. And hah, do you know I joined the MB for that thread?! Lord I'm sad... very, very sad... Thank you so much. Bratt is seriously my OTP. It makes me sad, though, especially that interview I just read from Total Guitar with Syn talking about his girlfriend >< BUT I SHALL GET BY IT... WITH AWESOME CREATIVE LICENSE. Ahem. Expect to see a bitchy girlfriend fic soon! How about I do gym-muscular-fluff? That can work... I was thinking of total, utter, unabashed smut involving exactly why Syn wears so many belts, however... ahem.

Sweet! I don't work/don't get money from parents due to my ludicrous age, so I tend to volunteer more than I donate. Working at the RSPCA was so much fun. One of the best weeks ever, and it was for such a cool cause. The 12 year old animal lover within went *squee*

[thexpills]

My God.
Your writing never ceases to amaze me (I'm a groupie)
But this,well transferred picture not to mention message.
Fuck,I'm all shaky now,I can't even type.
And the sad part,people would never understand,they just let this shit happen until it gets them.
Thank you for this fic.

[x_palimpsest]

Groupie! Weehee! AND ZOMG IT MADE ME SQUEE SO BAD TO GET A COMMENT FROM YOU BECAUSE YOUR MATTBRIAN MAKES ME DO LITTLE DANCES ♥ like woahhh.

I think that was what spurred me on. Not the fic in itself, because I haven't been writing for quite a while, but the message really kicked me into gear. It's something I've been thinking about for a while, and I really wanted to drive it home to not only myself, but to others. Because... the problem is, when people think of AIDS they think about uncountable numbers of people in Africa. And when the numbers are so huge they forget the humanity. They forget that these are people. They forget that it happens not only to the poor and the homeless, but to perfectly ordinary people. Even to celebrities. Think of Freddie Mercury, for example.

Thank you so much for your comment, and for reading it, and for understanding it ♥

[stormyxcore]

*takes a deep breath to try and hold it together long enough to reply*
Wow. Oh. Just. Wow.
When I get my financial aid last semester, I donated part of it to cancer research and part to AIDS. I plan to do that again this semester. (I found it rather weird that my sister is listening to the life support song from "RENT" as I was reading this).
That was really sad and moving. And aw.
That was amazing.

[x_palimpsest]

You are truly amazing. It's a rare breed of person to even consider giving such money to charities, let alone a person who would actually do that. Wow. Let's get married. (I love that songggg. Gahhh... now I'm gonna be singing RENT all day...)

Thank you so, so much. Really =] ♥

[stormyxcore]

I got what I wanted for me out of the loan, figured I might as well do some good with it. I was very proud of me for donating, I plan to do it again. Maybe volunteer over the semester esp. as I get closer to getting my degree (psychology) in the hospitals just talking with them about things (not like therapy but just talking).
Otay, we can get married. *snickers*
I have it in my head now too. I saw that scene for the first time and I was tearing up more so than any other point until and no point after it.

[x_palimpsest]

I'm proud of you too! I'm hoping to go for a psychology degree, and definitely go for the volunteering. It's really great fun. Plus, on the more selfish side of things, it's amazing to have experience like that on a CV, and to just talk to people and understand other situations.
Sweet! I call groom! =D TUX TIME.