Acceptable This Time (Vader/Palpatine) PG-13. Slash.

[wyncatastrophe]

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ACCEPTABLE THIS TIME

I roll away from him and wait for my breath to come back, not drawing on the dark side to simply do it for me because sometimes the

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[luminations]

What a bastard. Kinda want to smack Palpatine here. Argh!

Sometimes I forget why people hate him, so caught up in my fluffy bunny world that I am at times... You remind me nicely with this fic. lol

[wyncatastrophe]

It's that whole evil mastermind thing, kinda creepy if you ask me. It's considerably more disturbing than simply thinking of him as a dirty old man - which he may be, too. But ... yeah. I creeped myself out a bit on this one.

Thanks for commenting.

[wyncatastrophe]

Awww, thanks. :) And yes, Vader's life is incredibly, tragically sad. Every time I hear him say, "It is too late for me, son," I want to cry. :(

[wyncatastrophe]

Most things inspire me to watch more Star Wars. Kakkik and I are rewatching everything in preparation for Celebration V next month. :)

[pronker]

So many things here ...

I wonder, sometimes, if Vader cares. If he misses the face he'd come to see as friendly, genial, comforting.

He's wondering about looks and this is very human of him.

he becomes once more a supplicant in the face of the Force, rather than its Master.K/i>

Oh, Anakin, Anakin, Anakin ... *cries*

Healing, after all, is not what the dark side is for.

Palps is just so self-knowing, and that's why he epitomizes the dark side --- no leaving things to chance or fate

While I've been musing and trying to breathe, Lord Vader has reattached his mask and helmet and activated the mechanisms in his suit - a prudent move, as in the shock of my own orgasm I had forgotten entirely to see to his needs - not his sexual needs, which I never bother to meet anyway, but more basic: the need to keep breathing.

In his defense, there's not much thinking going on after coming, or moving, either.

Masterfully done viggie!

[wyncatastrophe]

Well, I figure that, for Sidious, looking like your soul is sort of a nightmare. Whereas Vader just looks ... sad, and infinitely lonely.

Poor Anakin.

Palpatine has always creeped me out to the nth degree. This continues to be true. Will you laugh at me if I say I gave myself the willies, writing this fic before breakfast?

And also, Sidious just doesn't care. He is so very cold.

"Thank you, my Master." :)

It's creepy and full of meaning, good writing.

[pronker]

He creeped me out with the voice in ESB, too. There was an ocean of malevolence in it. Looking at the saga as a whole, with him slowly revealed, puts it on another level than the story of Anakin.

Your icons never cease to amaze me.

[wyncatastrophe]

Any time I write something kinda dark, I end up sitting back and looking at the computer and saying, "Whoa. Am I really that creepy?" And the answer, apparently, is that I am.

It's true that there is something twisted about the way that Sidious pursues Anakin, as a prize and a possession and maybe a lover, all at once. I think he desires young Skywalker every way a person can feel desire.

And the plot bunnies are off and running ...

[ansketil_rose]

I roll away from him and wait for my breath to come back, not drawing on the dark side to simply do it for me because sometimes the experience of humanity is a luxury that I can and do allow myself. Even - or perhaps especially - in the Imperial Palace, at the heart of the power I have created.

Beautiful opening paragraph. I love how Palpatine "allows" himself human weaknesses - which he thinks he could totally give up at any time.

I wonder, sometimes, if Vader cares. If he misses the face he'd come to see as friendly, genial, comforting.

You've hit the nail on the head, I think, when you describe Palpatine thinking about himself from other people's eyes. He's an actor and a politician and he thinks about himself that way - from other people's POVs. He enjoys the sensation of an audience.

After all, I doubt that it is strictly for Sidious's sake that he is willing to forego his mask and helmet, vulnerable, letting me breathe for him - letting me use the dark side on him to force air through his battered lungs - for the time it

[wyncatastrophe]

Wow, thanks for the thoughtful commenting. Yeah, I dunno ... I kind of feel like Sidious is only a token human, that he has been so hollowed by the Dark Side that his humanity, like the personality of Palpatine, is really just a facade, and one that he occasionally revels in. But while Sith should draw on their passions as the source of their power, it seems to me that Sidious has few left. My head!canon, I guess: just the way I read the character. But that to me would explain his interest in how Vader (and others) see him: what good is a facade if there is only yourself to see it?

No, I've never seen the breathing-for-Vader thing elsewhere, either. But it seemed right for the scene: I couldn't imagine him managing all that for himself, but I could imagine him surrendering to it for his master, for the Palpatine he'd loved and lost. Vader clings to that shell of a man he'd respected for a very long time.

I have to go with the Infinities story in which the only thing Vader can hate enough to destroy Maul is himself. When I