So its been like 8763482 years since I've written in this thing.. Anyways, A LOT has happened.. I was in the hospital right before Christamas, and they finally figured out-after a spinal tap, 2 MRI's, too many blood tests to count and a million CT scans- I had a virus that caused the membrane around my brain to swell, causing the headaches. ( Read more... )

I LOVE SHAWN BELL! There, happy slut? lol Soooooo I'm still sick. But now I'm on meds... They make me hyper as hell for the first 20 minutes and then, oh lord, I am out of it for the next 4 hours. I'm not feelin this shit..Oh well. I've missed school all week. And that's SUPER bad. I cant be a super senior..I won't though, I'm just over-reacting. ( Read more... )

So this has been a pretty crazy week...Steve got sent back to New York by his crazy ass Uncle...Shitty. I have the flu, again...Shitty. Erik flipped his car, he's ok though...But still shitty. I need a job. And, I LOVE ERIK BENJAMIN SCHWARTZ! We're not together, but he's just like, my best friend... Sorry I didn't make that clear...

I just want to take back everything I said in my last entry... Im sorry I said that stupid shit. I just miss you, a lot, and you know that babe.. I love you ( Read more... )

So ya... You say you know I'm there for you, and you dont even do something as simple as IM me. You expect me to just sit here and wait around for you to do whatever it your going to do. What if you do move, think of all the things I'm missing out on. I think you don't love me, I think it was like, a desprate attempt to keep me around... Shit, I ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated this thing in like forever and a lot has happened, so I figure it was time.. Erik and I are officially over... We both kinda concluded that enough was enough.. He's going to Iraq in December, so everyone keep him in your thoughts.. I've been hanging out with a lot of people I didn't really think I'd ever be friends with.... ( Read more... )

I miss you, a lot.. You know that. But I hate what we are now. I love you, you leaving isnt going to change that. And trust me, I know your busy with what you're doing now, but honestly, I'm happy for you. You got out of here, and I'm still stuck. You know how the people are here... But my mind plays back on what was said that night. The flashbacks ( Read more... )

So, i was in a car accident yesterday. seriously, it sucks. i had to go to the emergency room cause my back was hurting to bad and they gave me a really strong pain meds and muscle relxaors, which, holy shit, make you pass out so fast. and i just took some, so its bed time.. later

Me and Erik broke up, again.. I love him a lot, everyone whos ever met either of us knows that we're super in love.. But a relationship where you dont see someone for more than 2 weeks at a time, gets just a little bi hard, so we're just ending it until things can be the way we want ( Read more... )

school sucks and its only like the third week. its way weird, all the people you expect to be there, aren't.. i dont like it. erik was home for like 2 weeks, and then he left again, shitty... everyone is leaving, i hate growing up.. anyways, its bed time..

i still love you..