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stupid brain
i dont have a great relationship with my mum, but the thing is i dont really want a better relationship with her. everytime i have reached out to her and tried to make an effort i just get her usual bullshit of not really caring about how i feel. I dont want sympathy or anything from her but i feel like if you are going to ask how i am at least ( Read more... ) -
Mostly stuff
Sigh am feeling a little gloomy today, last night I had to move lex as she had fallen asleep half off the bed and when I lifted her I fucked my thigh even more and today I am in a whole lotta pain. Am in bed cause I can't really do much which makes me feel even worse because Harley is sick & fallen asleep on the couch and lex is playing her ds. She ( Read more... ) -
A little bit of tmi
So I have 5 weeks 2 days to go eep! I know I had done this before but I am still pretty scared. I guess knowing what is going to happen is better and worse in many ways. I don't feel ready, I don't feel like the house is ready or that Harley and I can keep on top of everything. I do have times of calm when I feel ok and like everything is going to ( Read more... ) -
Family shit
Spent time with my mum and nanna today, Harley always gets worried when I do that because I come home really grumpy. Today I am just baffled at the sheer stupidity of my mum. she was insisting that my nan go to myer to find a bra because they have specialists there that will be bake to help her. She was pretty much demanding that she does it. Now ( Read more... ) -
hmmm
so i caught up with a friend today who seemed really sad, her bf is being a royal jerk and she is getting bullied at work by her boss. The thing is she has reallllly low self esteem so i dont think she is going to leave her bf which sucks because life for her with him is not all that fun. It seems to me like he is acting this way because he wants ( Read more... ) -
Exciting times
Am looking at courses with Harley cause today is mid year application day, eeep it's scary! But I think once Harley gets into something he enjoys he will be much happier. It's scary thinking that he could be studying for three - four years possibly longer if his plan works out (which I hope it does). Then I think in the long run things will be ( Read more... ) -
half an entry
so yeh things are ok, just the usual stuff really. my back is playing up big time and i am so so worried about work. I dont think many people realise how intensive and physical child care is. I barely get a chance to sit down and i am constantly having to get down low to the kid's eye level. so i have been to the osteopath today hoping to get some ( Read more... ) -
too old for this shit
so umm the girl with the hair and piercings sent me a text tonight asking if she had done wrong. so i talked to the man about it and he told me to tell her the truth, so i put it in the nicest way possible hoping that it would be ok, or at least soften the blow or something i dunno ( Read more... ) -
flattery is not the highest compliment
yup i am hulking out right now...the person who got the same piercing as me now has veeerrry similar hair to me...it's pretty much the same just a slight bit shorter. I mean have you seen my hair? it's kinda random it's not like she has randomly come up with it on her own, especially after saying over and over that she wants the same hair as me. i ( Read more... ) -
some of my life story...
its funny i have a lot of awesome things happening in my life right now but i am not feeling great, in fact i am feeling somewhat like i did about 7 years ago, when i was medicated. so here is a long story...
This is a tough one for me to write about but i feel like i gotta get it out of my system. Back then i was depressed, quite bad actually and ( Read more... )