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Sobriety is underrated

well some nice people sent me a paid account. now at this moment i am too inebriated to link et al but these wonderful people have done far too much for me and they now the have if only because i am telling them now ( Read more... )

I have just sat here and cried for the past 5 mnutes. Reading words and caring for a person that is hurting, knowing (do i really know) what things means. there are no worsxds to describe what this feeling is other than helplessness, the sort of feeling of wanting to take the person who is hurting intoyour arms and holding them. You want to make ( Read more... )

It is the finale of dawson's creek ( Read more... )

i had an exam todaythere are so many loud people, here, stressed, unworried, carefree. exams and play! supposed work and crammed revision ( Read more... )

i feel like i am failing i am so sorry i cannot do this i am failing i cannot carry on the skin on my wrists looks so tanned and unbroken i cannot do this i am still awke and your voice is in my head oh god stop it now please so i can get some sleep so i can rest my body acting like a forty years old aches and pains and knots. do and do nots i am ( Read more... )

two days later three years ago was when my world finished. how can a world finish? well it was a world of the carefree. everyone knows i have changed but they don't know why. i can face anything and on the outside look like i rock. i can be anybody's rock and on the inside crumble ( Read more... )

dear livejournal-world.
once upon a time ms. wraithshadow asked me to guest-post in her
livejournal-thing. (again! but this didn't count, because i was
there and not somewhere else.) and so! having nothing to say! i
present to you!


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I need one of the conversation that seem to occur between us. i have so much unresolved o!-ness. Feeling to be poured out and wordsmeant to pass my lips my fingertips.

So happy, and so even now that it seems odd To long a time to feel even. i have started forgetting the times when i cry (lastnight)So much is wonderful now! I wish happiness upon ( Read more... )