Exhaustion

[wondrous2]

Life is wearing me out; I'm tired as hell. I'm getting by, though. For the past few weeks I've been reading a bunch of self-help books and working on the exercises in them. I was reading a lot on spirituality, but now I'm working on the PTSD and the other problems. I've been learning a lot, so we'll see how this goes

Comments

[myrepose]

I can really relate to that at the moment :x

I hope you're feeling better soon.

[wondrous2]

Thanks. I hope you'll feel better soon, too. :-)

[wondrous2]

*hugs back*
Thanks, hun. :-)

[egvandrer]

It could be depression, but perhaps you should get a regular checkup at the 'family' doctor? Just to be sure.

If you learned anything really useful dealing with PTSD I hope you'll share. My pdocs/therapists never let me deal with the PTSD for some reason. But now I'm doing so much better.

Hugs & hope you feel better soon!!!!!!

[wondrous2]

That's odd. :-/ Why wouldn't they want to deal with the PTSD?

I haven't learned many useful skills for dealing with it yet, but I learned some important things about it and myself.

I believe, as do others, that growing up, or living in a seriously troubled or dysfunctional family or similar environment often brings about or is associated with PTSD. The PTSD is said to be more damaging and more difficult to treat if: (1)the traumas occur over a prolonged period of time, e.g., longer than six months; and especially so if (2) the traumas are of human origin; and if (3) those around the affected person tend to deny the existence of the stressor or the stress. --Dr. Charles L. Whitfield (Healing the Child Within)

Reading that serves as a validation for me and it makes me feel less like all this is my fault. Needless to say, I still blame myself for some things. I'm still learning the reasons why I have it.

[egvandrer]

They thought I was to weak, or untreatable, or something ~ I dunno. That at least was their reason explained to me.

I found that my most difficult thing with PTSD was how their abuse changed me. How my families behavior changed me. How they stole my sexuality for instance. I have recently (the last 6 months) come to the realization that I am me, and always will be me ~ with my personality ~ no mater what people do to me. I own every part of me. I am every part of me. I will always be me. And that was very comforting.

So the spirits have been working where the therapists would not :)

[unmeaningless]

if you need a dr get a dr. especially if the only reason you're not going to the black place is because you refuse to recognise that's where you're going.

do something! anything! get a routine job stacking supermarket shelves, until something better comes up. go for a walk around your neighbourhood every day and learn about the plants you see in people's front yards. offer to walk a neighbour's dog for free daily. you are worth the effort. do something!

lots of love. love love love. xoxox

[wondrous2]

Thanks, love. :-)

I walked down the street today, which was nice. lol And there's a job fair next month that I plan to go to. That should help.

[egvandrer]

Have you ever thought about getting into the IT profession? I think you would do good in the design/webdesign field.

[wondrous2]

Really? I never really thought about it. I probably would be good at it. :-)