Comments | wolfieboy: Mr. McNotPosty

wolfieboy

Mr. McNotPosty

Apr 30, 2006 14:33

I've been a bit concerned about my lack of posting. I'm a very touchy/verbal person but lately, I just haven't had the words. Usually it comes forth and I can't help but express it. I'm going to have to push.

journaling, brain chewing

Comments 13

skitten April 30 2006, 22:01:22 UTC

*hug*
you do what you need to do-
I'll still be reading :)

Re: still reading wolfieboy May 3 2006, 13:57:43 UTC

This is documenting my mindspace, rather than worrying if anyone reads me. I figure if they've hung in so far, they'll continue to do so if it follows their bliss.

My problem seems to be more that when I write, I have a feel for how the words should flow out and it makes my writing smoother and more euphonious. But I don't seem to have that feel. So, my words are more choppy and I can't figure out how the next word, the next sentence, the next paragraph interlocks with the previous, current, and next thought. But I'm pushing to get it out anyway.

This comment seems to've flowed better than many. Thanks!

Re: still reading skitten May 3 2006, 17:32:58 UTC

Flow...
yeah..
I can see what you mean....

So far I've really surprised myself with just how much I have to say....
but sometimes I avoid writing about hard subjects... or just pretend that my spelling errors aren't there so that I can keep writing :)

As a woman with ADD I've ALWAYS had a struggle connecting my thoughts to each other...

vespiamoon April 30 2006, 22:47:42 UTC

I will still be reading too.

Re: still be reading wolfieboy May 3 2006, 13:58:52 UTC

Thank you. As I mentioned to skitten above, I appreciate that people are reading but I'm more worried about being able to push the thoughts out and be able to English them here.

singingnettle April 30 2006, 22:58:57 UTC

What is it that you're concerned about? That you don't want to communicate, or that when you want to, you're having trouble formulating what you want to say?

Re: concerned about? wolfieboy May 4 2006, 04:41:16 UTC

I have stuff inside of me to express but when I try to express it, nothing comes out. Sometimes, it's a case of not being able to English it; sometimes I just can't seem to summon the Will to express it. This is what concerns me.

Re: concerned about? singingnettle May 4 2006, 06:20:41 UTC

To be honest, I am just a little bit worried about you; you seem to have been struggling a lot with health and well-being stuff this past year. Do you think this is a medical issue, or are you just (hah! "just"...) overworked or overtired or have too much competing for attention? Could it be medication side effects, or need for med adjustment?

Questions for thought, anyway...if you do decide you think it could be a medical issue and want to see someone, I have some good recommendations.

call_me_harmony May 1 2006, 08:59:05 UTC

Maybe there is a reason for this reticence. Perhaps it is more important to find out why than to push yourself to post.

Re: reasons for reticence wolfieboy May 4 2006, 04:44:46 UTC

It's possible that it's related to what I mention here. I don't know. But I can't only focus on why. If I don't post, I have these thoughts roaming around in my head and I need to find a way to express them. I'm doing okay so far now that I realize that my "natural" method doesn't seem to be working.

sometimes... cooncat May 1 2006, 17:54:48 UTC

I think it's normal to go into non-writing cycles.

Happy Beltane, btw. Miss you.

Re: sometimes... wolfieboy May 4 2006, 04:46:30 UTC

Thank you.

My problem is that I have things inside that need to be written down or they cycle and take my mindspace. Now that I know about the problem, I'm doing better about dealing with it.

Miss you too. Since you don't seem to be making it to gaming, possibly we'll just have to have you over by yourself…