I wonder how many people still follow me...
The last year has been hectic. I've been fighting my depression and trying to keep myself busy with traveling. I want a job but...I just can't. The idea of a job fills me with horrible anxiety. I hope one day I can have one but right now I have more important things to worry about; my health
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Depression is horrible, I have great difficulty in explaining at times exactly what's going on within me. The meds for it made me so badly tired and exhausted that they added to the problem. I've also put on a shed load, mostly through the insane drinking I was doing to escape, but also when you're that down it's hard to motivate yourself to do things.
My job is a day-to-day slog, I used to love my work but the actual work that we're doing now has changed so much that I'm not into it now. The downside is that of course it's my salary that supports the family and unless we uprooted and moved away there's very little else to choose from and certainly not at the wage I get.
But, there's always that opinion that there will be a wind of change coming soon and everything will come up roses lol.
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I wish I didn't have to work...but I'm sure that's the thought of millions of people. The actual thought of it makes me shake. I'm 29 and I've only had 3 jobs in my life. I can't keep them, the first time I'm reprimanded I fall apart, it's quite pathetic. I'm sure this also has to do with my anxiety issues. It's a pickle though because I'm running out of the money my grandma gave me. I need money to travel, something that keeps me happy...and to have money I need to somehow get an income. Oy vey...
I could make a long post about my depression but I didn't feel like it tonight. i'm on medication that's starting to lose it's effect...except for making me sleepy. Go figure.
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Yeah, Trazodone that I take is a heavy sedative, I was on 300mg of the stuff each night and couldn't function properly for most of the following day. On 100mg now and it's better but not ideal. Worst thing I did was slipping into drinking and becoming hooked on that, shaking that off has been a nightmare.
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Your health should certainly come before a job, so glad to hear that you have had the opportunity to travel.
Will you be in NYC in October to see Craig?
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Yep, I'll be at the RCMH show with one of my BFFs. I'm excited!
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Depression sucks, and I think these days everyone is anxious about a job, and anxiety over a job and the people you will have to work with at the job just makes both worse.
Eta, check the AIM box for Saries7 :-D
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If you decide to go through with it, I hope you've done all your research.
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Do you think that having a travelling job would be a possibility for you? I suppose, do you think it is the travel itself that helps (the change in scenery, etc) or the fun things you do WHILE travelling? There are several people on your with me who say that when they try to leave the circus they get depressed after a while, and that it seems like changing cities every week keeps them and their minds busy enough to keep the depression away. I know it's strange to think of uprooting your life but, may be worth a thought..
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