Finally, this calmness sets in. Everything is going to be okay. Everything is going to be alright. Everything is going to be fine. I will get through this. 

I can feel the rage almost exploding inside of me. Trying to calm down after all the events that happened today. I don't know why, I don't feel sad. Maybe not yet. I'm just really angry at the moment. So much disappointment. Maybe I shouldn't hold on to any sort of hope. Hope is the thing that destroys. Hope, expectations. Just live in the present ( Read more... )

I will rise from the ashes even if you burn me down.

What happens when you start to lose meaning in the actions that you make ( Read more... )

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Real life people are so hard to please.
Well I got somethin' for y'all:
"Grow up and stop throwin' tantrums cos the world ain't fair
And you ain't gonna get everything you want.
Cos life's just like that."
Snap out of it.

I don't see why I should be putting in effort when you don't. I don't feel like I'm being treated equally. Disappointing. And so sickening.
 Yeah, I'm tired and exhausted too, but I tried my best. Just not sure how long I can hold on any longer.

I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?
Your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by

I've helped some people this year. Come 2012, maybe I should start saving myself, for the better.