I stayed in bed until almost three today. Disgusting.

I've been thinking about things to be thankful for...
-- No more Doing Thinking. Ever.
-- I didn't fail enough in Japanese to be remanded to a lower level class
-- My family still loves me
-- My cat still loves me
-- We have an awesome x-mas tree this year
-- My mother still makes cookies with flour in ( Read more... )

Oh god, kill me now.

Why is it that most of my friends hated school?

Growing up in the US means that you are required to obtain a certifiable education. The government provides for a huge, lumbering public school system that has the kind of momentum you might associate with a small planet, but you don't necessarily have to attend it. This doesn't prevent everyone from ( Read more... )

my depression is on overdrive so everything feels like the worst thing ever
don't really like complex thanksgiving foods? worst food ever
tired of listening to your family talk about work? worst conversation ever
can't seem to sit down and write that paper for class? worst assignment ever
still failing to memorize that kanji? worst kanji ever

I ( Read more... )

Why do I feel like I'm going insane?

Oh wait, nm

IT'S BECAUSE I AM

Yesterday I spent an hour and a half talking with my thinky-dinky prof. We did not talk about class. She requested my entire college history. I don't have any idea why I gave it to her rather than just saying no, you can't have it, it is mine and it is personal. By the time I got to the ferry I realized that she had managed to open up every single ( Read more... )

I have it.

My current war with myself is mostly centered on school. Things like actually attending or spending any time studying are a little more difficult than what I would term "usual". My Japanese class is easy to attend; the people are nice, and the experience is both fun and memorable. My other class I have trouble doing anything for. I'm not ( Read more... )

Dear crazy professor folks ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about it, and I think that the thing that worries me the most about my escapades so far in the idea-land of teaching is that everyone is supportive, and that everyone thinks I would make a really good teacher. I'm not exaggerating here. I trust most of them to have the willpower to warn me off if they thought I would make a bad ( Read more... )

School tomorrow, and I'm getting a bit wound-up about it. Annoyingly wound up. This is my very last night at the house-sitting house, and I am overwhelmingly thankful for that fact because I really just hate the place. It's the uncomfortable bed, and the pouty dog, and the uneven staircase, and the extremely loud live-bird alarm clock. It may also ( Read more... )