So many thoughts, not enough room. I don't even know where to begin things are so hard right now so many things just keep going wrong. My best friend is deployed an has changed into someone I can't even recognize. So now I feel as tho I have no one left to lean on when things get bad like they are now. Everything I do an even things I don't do are ( Read more... )

 Tonight I feel as though i have had my heart ripped out. Im in so much pain but no one can see or even cares anymore. I have to be strong for them now. So my strength for me is fading fast. I hear the call of the blade louder than ever now. I feel like all the air from my chest is gone and i cant breathe. All i seem to do is mess everything up. i ( Read more... )

  
So I sit here wondering many things. People are always so full of disappointments. Im so tired of people saying they care and then out of nowhere they just disappear. And im always the one left to pick up the pieces. Its not fair. But then again i guess life isnt fair. I always try so hard to be a good person and treat everyone right.  I know i ( Read more... )

How do you get away from internal darkness ( Read more... )

Life is coming at me fast
A bit too fast to take
I pray to the lord for guidance
Yet I still feel im making mistakes

I fear my future
And envy my youth
No longer am I a little girl
Im slowly learning the harsh truths

No more lending hands
I am now on my own
In this big scary world
unfortunately grown

Making decisions
Ones that will affect my ( Read more... )

Running from the shadowed plains.
I hear voices, I hear them well.
They follow me, where ever I turn.
No matter what, they have me locked down.
In their firm grasp, I know this is the end.
I finally give up to their presence.
They whisper and curse.
"Let me help you, do the job"
They say as there slit my wrists for me.
As I bleed out, I weep.
They are ( Read more... )

I feel so lost alone i finally was starting to let my guard down around him then he tells me he doesnt care about me the same way anymore. i accidentally fell for him and things were goin so well then his ex got in the way and started telling him lies about me. so now his guard is always up when we hang out. then things started to get better and we ( Read more... )

I try to be as positive as i can but nothing works the moment i start feeling better about my life something always goes wrong im so close to just giving up. I feel like everything i touch goes wrong. what am i suppose to do now who am i suppose to trust to help me and protect me. I feel so alone i feel like i have this dark secret deep inside me ( Read more... )

Life is nothing but will end in my ultimate distruction ( Read more... )

Look into my eyes what do you see? By the smile on my face you probably think I'm happy.

I wear this smile anymore its automatic, but deep inside my pains rather traumatic.

So by my smile you were deceived, but if you would have looked closely another assumption you might have perceived.

Then theirs my hoodie, wrist bands to cover the scars that are ( Read more... )