Dissapointment abounds

[wildrose80]

Isn't it amazing how you can be dissapointed to the point of massive depression even if you know better then to expect otherwise? I know my Dad is unreliable and dissmisive, even at fifty he acts like he is 21 (only that old because he is for sure old enough to get into bars, and does regularly.)He was supposed to visit us this morning and I can't

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[legendofthehawk]

I am sorry *hugs*.

It's not a flaw that you want to believe the best of people. Especially people that you love. There will always want to be that part of you that wants to keep hope alive ..that there can be more to your relationship then what you know there has been. That there should be. To believe the best of someone when you've seen them at their worse. People can have a funny way of surprising you sometimes.

Even when you've tried to build walls around your heart.. you may find that is unable to block out hope. While it doesn't suck any less when that hope gets crushed.. It will always be there. Because you love, and you want to believe the best of someone.

[princessbrat95]

very well put. i dont think i could have said it better myself. which of course is why you said it, and i didnt. lol

[princessbrat95]

hugs and kisses for my best girl. i love you sweetie! i am sorry that dad is an ass most of the time. i dont know why, or what to say or do to fix it. i wish i could. but we both know that if cutting out the people who hurt us the most were the answer, and as simple as it sounded, we would have done it years ago. its like some people say, if it doesnt kill us, it just makes us stronger,... well i am quite strong enough for right now i say. lol