Dissapointment abounds
Isn't it amazing how you can be dissapointed to the point of massive depression even if you know better then to expect otherwise? I know my Dad is unreliable and dissmisive, even at fifty he acts like he is 21 (only that old because he is for sure old enough to get into bars, and does regularly.)He was supposed to visit us this morning and I can't get him on the phone even. He promissed he would get me a new pair of glasses for christmas, HIS offer, I did't ask for it. I just wish he would act like a Dad, you know. I KNOW BETTER! this has been going on for 10 damn years. He does something, I get hurt, we don't talk for a few weeks/months, I forgive, we talk, REPEAT! When the hell will I learn not to take his word to heart? He is not capable of behaving in a fatherly fasion. He is far to busy with his five girlfriends to have time for familly. (I am acctually not exagerating here he has five.) To hell with it I am shutting up