its amazing really, how much i hate my life. i fucking got my period today, of course because for the next three days i have to spend the night at other peoples houses. i dont want to be menstrating at other peoples houses, thats so disrespectful. god, ewface. i feel like shit, my life is shit, someone is fucking honking outside my house. stupid ( Read more... )

so yesterday sucked a lot. i went to the doctor and found out the joints and cartilidge between my ribs is inflamed and its not gonna go away for a while and if it does go away, it will most likely come back. when i got home from the doctor there was a letter from Kubert at my house. I went up to my room and opened it, it stated "Based on your ( Read more... )

rejection..... i really thought i was good, im not.....

im in art, im not doing anything. i finished the picture i was drawing for robbie. i hope he likes it, but even if he doesnt he will pretend to cause hes amazing like that. 4 months today, i love him passionately. i have to go to the doctor today i think, my heart and lungs still hurt, its one of the most painful things ive ever experienced in my ( Read more... )

gAwDeSs of SiN: are you talking to kirsten ( Read more... )

you make me want to hurt others. truly and painfully.

so i was 2 seconds from puking in the hallway today. that was exciting. disgustingly to stop from doing that i had to swallow it, gross. i came home and as soon as i walked in the door i was puking my brains out. then i passed out for a couple hours. i feel ok now but i dont know what happened. my mom is very nervous by all this, she is thinking ( Read more... )

i have been hearing a lot of beautiful quotes lately, in books and in movies, such wonderful phrases that stick in my mind for days. "If you look in the mirror and dont like you what you see, look in my eyes, im the only mirror you'll ever need." "You cannot run away from something you dont have." Those are the only ones i have written down in my ( Read more... )

school is just a place where cattle go, proded and poked through the hallways until they pour into the doors of their classrooms where they face their impending doom. i hate this place. my gym teacher during family living said that this town is our little bubble protecting us and preparing us for the outside world. i simply replied "this bubble ( Read more... )

when did everything go so fucking wrong? what happened?