Elohai!

[wicked_danu]

My co-worker, Annie, brought her baby to work today. Aww, such a dumpling! I worked a half hour more than usual today... I didn't go home. I went straight to that Arabic class which I had signed up for. The Arabic class was fine.. just half hour of actual study. Then the other class came in, and we talked about our schools and teachers. Turns out

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[anonymous]

tel him ur bi-sexual NOW NOW NOW! i wudve told u this if u wudve told me this part of it while v wer chattin!!

-tas

[wicked_danu]

It doesn't matter, sweetie, he'd still be upset. Maybe half as upset, but still upset. He'd tell me all the more to "change" and "sacrifice". I wanna be me.

OMFG!

[pebbles_patio]

Lordy Danny Boy...sounds like you could use a hug.

It's not an easy thing for parents to come to grips with...and it will take a while. Give him the chance to go through his "mourning". At this point however, don't let it slip back into the closet...if you are truely gay or bi, having the family blissfully believe that you were just confused and that you'll be "normal" is not going to help anyone.

Chip chip, stiff upper lip and whatnot...

xoxox,
pebs

Re: OMFG!

[wicked_danu]

Thanks, Pebs, need that hug :)

I'm not letting it slip "back" anywhere.. no, I've played my game of hide and seek. I don't want them to turn their faces and ignore it, or worse still, start looking at me as a weirdo or someone in need of psychiatric help. I don't care what anybody else thinks or says about me, but I need some sort of assurance that my parents accept me for whatever I am.

Thanks, again.

[allerron]

I agree with pebs. At least it's out in the open now. Just keep in mind that you've had a while to come to terms with this and they just received confirmation on it. It'll take them a while, so have patience...

*hugs*

[wicked_danu]

I'm ready to give them all the time they want. I just want to know, somehow, that they're going to be ok. That they're not gonna force me to change.
Maybe I should practise what I preach and get rid of the "fear" myself.

OMFA!

[peccavo]

A serious talk is in order. Your pa just wants you to be happy. He's already gotten a few shockers this summer. You don't have to compromise your identity, but you can compromise your behavior. For example, if you promised them not to look at porn anymore (at least til you're 18) and not to have sex or do drugs... that could ease his mind considerably.
Heterosexuals never question what motivates their sexual attractions or whether those attractions are genuine or not-- so they tend not to be sympathetic to us who have to tread our own paths sexually. They only understand what they personally feel.
It's a good thing to come out to your dad. You'll feel better about it later.

Re: OMFA!

[wicked_danu]

My pa wants me to be happy at the expense of my identity. About the porno, he told me not to "indulge" into such things but I know how hypocritical he's being. And it's not like I'm out humping guys/girls all day long. And I absolutely loathe drugs, except maybe the occasional hookah that I smoke... but that doesn't even make me high or anything.

I know I'll feel better later.. I hope I will, but right now, the situation in my head is tumultuous. For no reason, actually, because Papa was really cool and non-chalant in the morning.

[unwrittenlaw514]

that's really good you told your father about this. it's the first step to something better. but, maybe, just maybe if you explain to him that you are bi-sexual, not truely gay (that is, if you are), maybe it'd help reassure him. I'm really glad you told him though, for some reason it makes me feel better.^^

[wicked_danu]

I'm glad that now one more person knows about my sexuality, because I want to be honest with people. I told him about all those marriages that end up in divorce because either the hubby or the wife hide their sexuality. I could be fake-happy for my parents, but how far would that work?
I'm glad I told him too, and I'm happy know other people feel the same way.