[fail private to Remus]

[why_so_me]

Hey, Remus.

...when you get a chance, is it okay if I talk to you?

Nothing urgent, I just -- there's some things I want to say.

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[why_so_me]

[Sirius is looking at the ground, though he can tell Remus must be looking at him expectantly. He feels awkward as hell, but he knows he needs to say this.]

I just...about what happened. With Snape and the Shack, and everything. [He swallows, and he seems to try and say everything without stopping to breathe, as if pausing might mean he'd lose his nerve.] I'm just...I'm sorry, I am so sorry. It was stupid and awful and I shouldn't have done it, but mostly I shouldn't have done it to you, and -- and I'm not going to try to make excuses for doing it, because there aren't any

[lycanthropy_101]

[Maybe Sirius won't put his head forward to rest on Remus's shoulder, but Remus has no problem doing so to Sirius, resting his head on the other boy's shoulder and finally relaxing a little into the touch. They aren't anywhere near where they used to be, and Remus doesn't know that they can ever make it back to there, but. He needs this, he needs to know that they're okay, even with Sirius having hurt him as he did]

...I missed you. [His voice is quiet and soft] I was worried about you. I still am.

[why_so_me]

[At hearing this, Sirius is all too tempted to just hug Remus as tightly as he can and never let go. His chest aches with affection and guilt and how much he's missed the other boy.]

I've missed you do. [His voice nearly catches as he says it.] You don't need to worry about me. I'm alright.

[lycanthropy_101]

Sirius. I know you. Of course I have to worry about you... [He does nothing even resembling letting the other go]

[why_so_me]

[Sirius chuckles the tiniest bit, still clinging as much as ever.] Somehow I didn't think that would stop you. You worry too much.

[lycanthropy_101]

[He shrugs] Maybe I do. I'd rather worry and be able to keep an eye on you than not.

[why_so_me]

Sounds like you. [Teasing, slightly:] Guardian Moony, watching in the night that all Marauders do not wind up unhappy or in trouble, or, worse, wind up in lots of trouble that they planned themselves.

[lycanthropy_101]

Not just in the night. Watching any time that I have to. If I watched only in the night then I'd only catch half of the trouble that you lot get yourselves into...

[why_so_me]

[He chuckles, still wrapped around Remus as much as ever.] You must get very little sleep, then, Moony.

[lycanthropy_101]

[Remus shakes his head] I really don't. Not really. [Especially since he'd been fighting with Sirius. God, he was used to being able to slip over and sleep with him, and then... Well. He'd just have to get used to sleeping alone again, wouldn't he. He could do it. He'd slept alone most of his life, up until last year]

[why_so_me]

[Sirius can sense that he's maybe stumbled onto an area of thought that he shouldn't have, something he shouldn't have brought up given the circumstances. But a stab of wistfulness shoots through him when he thinks of being able to fall asleep with Remus curled against him, warm and comforting.]

You need to sleep sometime, oh watchful one. Or you'll have no energy to chase us when you catch us up to no good.

[lycanthropy_101]

Or watch your back and make sure that you're in the clear instead of in the trouble that you always seem to find yourself in.

[why_so_me]

Remus, I'm pretty sure we're all in trouble more often than we are not, and the times when we're not are usually reserved for eating, sleeping, and using the loo.

[lycanthropy_101]

[Remus shakes his head] It doesn't have to be like that, you know. There are plenty of things you can do for fun that don't involve detention... [You need to think about consequences more, Sirius. That's what got you into the mess you're in right now, after all]

[why_so_me]

[He catches that undertone to Remus' voice, and feels a stab of guilt.] ...yeah. Maybe. There's always Quidditch, after all.

[lycanthropy_101]

[Remus nods] There is Quidditch. And school work. And hanging around with friends. I'm not saying that you all need to behave all the time, butt you don't need to be pulling pranks to enjoy yourselves. You know you don't.