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Help me up before I drown!
That's it. I can't do this anymore! I feel ignored, pushed around, controlled and manipulated by everyone around me. It's probably just me but I need to get it out so I'm getting it out right here. Things have gradually got worse, and the last few days I have consumed only 100-200 calories per day. And it sucks, but oh what a great feeling. It ( Read more... ) -
Letting my mind wander...
Why does everyone always blame the media when it's a discussion about eating dissorders? Sure, a lot of girls (and guys) are probably effected by the media and their unrealistic presentation of "perfect", but really, that can't be the main reason. Are we, humans, so self-centered? So obsessed with ourselves that we end up harming ourselves? Why do ( Read more... ) -
Relapse :(
I feel like I'm falling behind again. Why do I even care? I'm so selfish. But the truth is, I can't help it! I can't help wanting to feel hungry, weak and dizzy. It sounds sick, and well, I AM sick! I don't know what to do anymore. I don't have any more motivation to deny the thoughts, and I just end up purging whenever I feel a little too full, ( Read more... ) -
Let's be supportive :)
I figured it's time for me to start blogging again. It's been a long time, but now I'm back. I'm staying anonymous so that I can write what I'm really thinking about and what I'm really feeling without having to worry about anyone finding out who I am. I have a lot of thoughts, and a lot of feelings. I'm a little messed up inside and there are ( Read more... )