Every time I clean my room...I find more memories of you, and I just don't know what to do with them...

Let me know when my best friend comes back, idk who you are anymore...and yes, I already know it's my fault.

Fuck you.

May 15th...i've already started packing my bags. Not sure exactly where I am heading, but i'm going until I find something that'll feel like more of a home to me,

I can't even look at myself in the mirror, I despise the person i've become. The only thing I want in this entire world if to prove I can be the person she needs and wants (wanted) me to be...but it is too late now. And now we don't even know if we can be friends anymore. She is my world, even as just a friend, she is the person I talk to all day, ( Read more... )

I think i'm going to transfer...and move. I've put a lot of thought into it. I just run around in circles here, get nowhere. Maybe transfer out to AZ, maybe back to Texas...somewhere out west. I want to just clear my phone book and start from scratch...I know i've thought about it before, but I feel more certain than ever this time. Maybe join the ( Read more... )

I have absolutely no one to go to anymore...I've pushed everyone away....and I'm sick and tired of people acting like they are unbiased, then when I try and talk, they put me down for what i've done. Don't you think I fucking know by now what I fucking did? Don't you think that I understand that I don't deserve her and she deserves someone better ( Read more... )

My room is filled with reminders of you...everytime I think everything is getting better and that i'm going to be okay, I look at something else that reminds me of us. The 52 reasons deck of cards, all the pictures, everything...I don't know what to do. I just want to stop crying every night...

Everything was going so well...we took a big step yesterday, I was so happy for the rest of the day, and for today...

...then I found my "snuggle monster IOU book" in my desk drawer and realized I'll never get to cash any of those in...and I lost it.

This is going to be harder than I thought...

Every night its the same thing. Clear mind, good mood...then right before I go to bed, I make myself miserable again. I think about everything. It is so repetitious..all these horrible scenarios play through my head...I think the worst about everything. Then when I wake up, the day goes by and I get better. Afternoons are okay, nights are pretty ( Read more... )

I got ditched by my "friends" tonight...how was I so fucking arrogant to realize you were right? Why not listen to the one person...that even before we dated knew EVERYTHING about me, who knew who was a real friend to me and who wasn't ( Read more... )