it kills me to care about someone who is so amazing and everything that you want but deep down know that no matter what they tell you (or themselves for that matter) you're still second best. i haven't felt like this is years, i honestly never thought i'd ever feel like this again after everything that happend before, but amazingly, out of no ( Read more... )

well today is april 30, 2007 and that means that there are exactily 19 dyas till my 20th birthday!!!! i can't believe i'm going to be 20!!! it just seems so crazy to me to think that i won't be a teenager anymore! there are so many things that i thought would be different about me when i turned 20 but they're not. i always thought that by the time ( Read more... )

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so...i've been at kaitlynn and maddi's house for like the past week i mean we've gone to disneyland and like shopping and everything this week so saturday night i was hanging out with maddi cuz kaitlynn was with alex like always and we decided to rent moives and then go back to the house with mimi's and watch moives so like we got there and their ( Read more... )

i'm such a girl! yes i know that is obvious...but i really am acting like one. my dad records the show "the unit" to the DVR. the show is basically about a special opps unit in the army and all their missions and like what they do it's crazy...i like the show but i'm such a girl. it scares the crap out of me everytime i watch it cuz i think about ( Read more... )

so keith has been pising me off...i'm actually doing really well with dale and like i like how things are with him and so like i haven't seen keith in a few weeks and so he's freaking out and i was supposed to spend time with him last night but i ended up staying at stacy's house and having a marker fight haha so effin funny!!!!! but keith kept ( Read more... )

i'm so tired!!! OMG i've been running on empry for like ever now!!!!! it's insane...so lets start where we left off...vaid...i don't know where he is...i think he got shipped out again...but i don't know i'm worried about him...but at the same time his job does this kinda of thing all the time...like he has to leave any second...which is why i'm ( Read more... )

okay so my birthday was fun i went to disneyland with my disney buddie shaun and then went to dinner with the family on saturday and then to the beack on sunday...so i was fine and had a good time...still no word from taylor but honestly i'm over it...i'm not even mad anymore...i think he's a dumb ass and probally the biggest loser to even walk the ( Read more... )

so here's the reason for my last entry...not like anyone reads this it's more theraputic than anything...i don't think i spelled that right but oh well...last time i wrote me and taylor had gone to the movies and i had woken up in a bad mood but when i left everything was fine we kissed and he said to call him with i got home...and i did...and we ( Read more... )

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