It's fall. It's beautiful. I wake up every morning with the sun beaming through the window onto my face, but still get to write haikus throughout the day about the gloriously chilling, crisp air. so much art to be done! so many deep breaths of leafy air to consume! 

 inspiration. found. moving. breathing. inspiration. the kind i have to tame. 

 researching ayahuasca ceremonies ( Read more... )

 summer has been punctuated by a season of extreme lows finally followed by a season of extreme highs.

life is magnificent.

there is color, heat, life in the universe. there is so much potential energy everywhere.

took a trip to montana, helped refresh everything.

with school approaching in 2 weeks, looking forward to seeing fall colors and smells ( Read more... )

 summer so far:

-the michael breakup
-none of my research experiments have worked. still. it's week 6 now.
-death of a sweet and wonderful friend in CO.
-identity theft that's cost me over a month's pay. now too poor to visit NV or CO. 
-death of my cousin who was battling cancer
-clouds, cold, wind, rain. a whole lot of seasonal depression

Needless to ( Read more... )

 my friend was riding his bike last week, got hit by a car and died.

a complete accident. weird/eerie/unfair. 
life is fleeting.

 breakups never get any easier

however, the inclination to trust people exponentially decreases each time.

sleep, where have you gone? every day is a restless shadow, wanting to do anything that would warrant sleeping at the end of the day. stay wishing, with hopes that something better will happen.. but it never does because my brain is so sleep deprived that it doesnt make beautiful thoughts anymore.
have to start painting again.
 need an adventure. 

I think I'm coming to some pretty important realizations about what makes me happy and what I want to do with my life.
I think I want to be a lighting designer.

I love science, I love the thrill of research and learning about the world around me, but nothing can replace the absolute and utter bliss that art gives me.
I have always thought about art ( Read more... )

 i get a bit weird when i study calculus, i have to remind myself of the good things in life.. like biochemistry

a biochemist love letter...

My love,
i can't sleep.
so i thought i'd say i love you.
thoughts of you crowd my brain like the steric hindrance that happens with a t-butyl group. 
but don't worry, i'll always go around back for you.
you know why ( Read more... )